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A couple of days ago I posted what I believed was a very straightforward post about a job that I wanted. The hexagrams I received didn't give me any new information about the situation. The answers reflected back what I already knew fairly well about that job.
Another purveyor of this site told me to ask for a general diagnosis of my labor time, which is not about my job, or anything specifically connected to earning money or vocation, but could be described as an analsyis of one's role in the external world. This is according to a traditional method that I am not familiar with. My answer was 7.4.6 (64). According to this traditional method, I received an extremely rare and extraordinarily negative response about how I interact in the world that was connected to not learning a major lesson in a specific timeframe last year. And, according to this message, I am psychologically not connected to present time. Sort of like Groundhog Day, I guess, where you can't move forward until you figure out something.
Reality check- I'm not crazy, I'm not a criminal, I'm not on drugs, I don't have any major issues. My life is normal. The job I asked about isn't even that important to me, and doesn't have anything to do with last June. So, of course, I have to figure out what the real message I-ching is giving me, because the guidance is supposed to get my attention about something, or it wouldn't be such an urgent and rare answer. Right? Or at least, I am exploring the possibility that there is an urgent message for me.
So, I meditate and reflect on 7.4.6. (64), and I believe this is saying, "You have given up leadership of your life direction and retreated into chaos, and accepted the small instead of the great". Ok, where have I done that? When it comes to last June?
Well, that's when something happened with a man, who is still in my life, and will remain there forever because of children, but who is not in a relationship with me. What ideas am I "strongly connected to" that are holding me back so dangerously? Well, I have to examine what I believe about him, as that would be where to find an idea I am connected to and need to let go.
Deep down, I believe/fear/think about/ that I am inferior and cannot have what I want or need from him, or from anyone else. How does that relate to how I am generally in the world?
I made a connection, then, that made a great deal of sense. I feel like I have difficulty connecting intimately and authentically to anyone except my family, and have always felt that way for many years as an adult. Kind of like- I hold myself back from deep friendships/relationships. I don't trust that people will like/accept me. I get left out. If something bad happens- it happens to me. Great example- I post something on a message board- and my answer is the worst answer EVER. Another good example- I had a series of Reiki treatments a few months ago, and the practioner said that I was resisting the energy, and it's because I have an unconscious, automatic emotional defense that has to "screen" all of the energy coming into my space. Relationships are just energy exchanges, so this is like a picture of what's going on. It isn't casually meeting people, it isn't business communication, it doesn't apply to my family- it's just a way of holding myself back from peer connections.
I don't understand why, and could use help understanding how to get to where I need to be.
I asked what I need to examine in my "labor" realm, the external world, and received 29 unchanging.
I asked what I needed to leave in the past connected to the man in June, and received 26 unchanging.
I asked what lessons did I not learn connected to the man in June, and received 35.4. I pondered what that meant, and I think it may mean, you didn't tell him what you really wanted from him, and accepted less.
I asked, what is the path forward (to rectify this problem)? 4 unchanging.
What do I need to release? 23 unchaing.
What do I need to embrace? 49.1.2 (28)
Show me an overview of the relationship (or lack of it, of course) with this man. Keep in mind he's permanent, he's not going anywhere, so it makes sense to ask about him, and what happened in the past is that I possibly turned away from the opportunity to make things work. 35.2 (64)
Another purveyor of this site told me to ask for a general diagnosis of my labor time, which is not about my job, or anything specifically connected to earning money or vocation, but could be described as an analsyis of one's role in the external world. This is according to a traditional method that I am not familiar with. My answer was 7.4.6 (64). According to this traditional method, I received an extremely rare and extraordinarily negative response about how I interact in the world that was connected to not learning a major lesson in a specific timeframe last year. And, according to this message, I am psychologically not connected to present time. Sort of like Groundhog Day, I guess, where you can't move forward until you figure out something.
Reality check- I'm not crazy, I'm not a criminal, I'm not on drugs, I don't have any major issues. My life is normal. The job I asked about isn't even that important to me, and doesn't have anything to do with last June. So, of course, I have to figure out what the real message I-ching is giving me, because the guidance is supposed to get my attention about something, or it wouldn't be such an urgent and rare answer. Right? Or at least, I am exploring the possibility that there is an urgent message for me.
So, I meditate and reflect on 7.4.6. (64), and I believe this is saying, "You have given up leadership of your life direction and retreated into chaos, and accepted the small instead of the great". Ok, where have I done that? When it comes to last June?
Well, that's when something happened with a man, who is still in my life, and will remain there forever because of children, but who is not in a relationship with me. What ideas am I "strongly connected to" that are holding me back so dangerously? Well, I have to examine what I believe about him, as that would be where to find an idea I am connected to and need to let go.
Deep down, I believe/fear/think about/ that I am inferior and cannot have what I want or need from him, or from anyone else. How does that relate to how I am generally in the world?
I made a connection, then, that made a great deal of sense. I feel like I have difficulty connecting intimately and authentically to anyone except my family, and have always felt that way for many years as an adult. Kind of like- I hold myself back from deep friendships/relationships. I don't trust that people will like/accept me. I get left out. If something bad happens- it happens to me. Great example- I post something on a message board- and my answer is the worst answer EVER. Another good example- I had a series of Reiki treatments a few months ago, and the practioner said that I was resisting the energy, and it's because I have an unconscious, automatic emotional defense that has to "screen" all of the energy coming into my space. Relationships are just energy exchanges, so this is like a picture of what's going on. It isn't casually meeting people, it isn't business communication, it doesn't apply to my family- it's just a way of holding myself back from peer connections.
I don't understand why, and could use help understanding how to get to where I need to be.
I asked what I need to examine in my "labor" realm, the external world, and received 29 unchanging.
I asked what I needed to leave in the past connected to the man in June, and received 26 unchanging.
I asked what lessons did I not learn connected to the man in June, and received 35.4. I pondered what that meant, and I think it may mean, you didn't tell him what you really wanted from him, and accepted less.
I asked, what is the path forward (to rectify this problem)? 4 unchanging.
What do I need to release? 23 unchaing.
What do I need to embrace? 49.1.2 (28)
Show me an overview of the relationship (or lack of it, of course) with this man. Keep in mind he's permanent, he's not going anywhere, so it makes sense to ask about him, and what happened in the past is that I possibly turned away from the opportunity to make things work. 35.2 (64)