Job 59.1.5 to 41

[Lodestar]

Hello,
I have posted about my job before and here I am again! I have been spending a lot of time weighing up how much of the situation at my job is my own thought and personality patterns and how much is it the environment itself simply being chaotic and toxic and not good for me to be in.

I have taken a stand about several issues - succeeded with some, not others. My main difficulty is dealing with the chaos of too much going on all the time - making it impossible to focus on anything and do a decent job. Management are over worked and not organised, new initiatives constantly begin before previous ones are complete, staff that are happy seem to have negotiated their workload down - but not without union threats etc

I asked iching 'What action should I take in relation to my job' (with the possibility of leaving and launching myself into the unknown). I got 59.1.5 to 41 dispersing to decreasing.

Also in my mind is the idea of picking back up an artistic career I dropped a couple of years ago due to finances and the instability. I asked 'what if I return to music' I got 64 not yet across/nearing completion

Many thanks for any interpretations on this.

 

[anemos]

hi,

if the answer refers to the current workplace , seems that you need to make more clear your concerns. in 41 the lower increases the upper ( your managers?). 59 might suggest that the rigidity somehow needs to be dissolved. Both lines, according to Wilhelm talk about misunderstanding and mistrust - could me also lack of efficient communication - they are barriers.

59 seems to advice a more relaxed approach. I like line 59.1 ;feels like there is something it can be used towards the improvement of this chaotic situation.

 

[pocossin]

What action should I take in relation to my job?
59.1.5 > 41

I think you feel entombed by this job. How can you bore a way out or at least let in fresh air? From hexagram 41 I think you would benefit from further training. Perhaps management would cover the costs of this.

What if I return to music?
64 unchanging

Not promising. There is more to do. Most who succeed in music have the support of a group. You are in New York. Could you perform in nightclubs? Whatever it takes to stay active and develop you talent.

 

[Lodestar]

Hi pocossin, thanks for your reply - entombed is pretty accurate! But no more training please..

I've read interpretations that take 64 as simply 'lots of work already done - more needs to be done' that would describe my situation pretty well.

However I'm intrigued at you mentioning the need for a support group - lack of support has been the key problem for me in this area ! I'm pretty much tops at supporting other people - as a child my whole purpose in my family was to listen to their problems and provide emotional support and help. Now as an adult I find it extremely hard to ask for help, or receive attention or support of any kind - so while I have skill and talent - being in the limelight or putting myself out there are very difficult for me. I've done it, I've achieved a certain level - but all through willpower rather than connection to the self or source.

So I asked is musical creation/performance my soul path? I got 25.2 to 10
That's resonating with my yoga and meditation path.. To me it says stop thinking just get on with it!

No clear answer re dramatic throwing in of towels.. Let's see if I can claw my way out of my tomb at work and create something healthy, balanced and maybe even beautiful..

 

[Tohpol]

Many sympathies with your artistic path. I was an illustrator for over ten years and ended up loathing the whole business. Talk about taking the joy out of the work...but I did find my creative niche after I finally stopped struggling and let go. But it took me many years to grow out of the idea I had to fight my way through to fulfillment.

25.2>10 does say "get on with it" in one way but I think it's more in terms of cultivating the correct inner attitude and conduct regarding your creative desires. No amount of force is going to get you where you want to be. However, you can prepare the ground and get in touch with your true creative self in everything you do. It sends out the signal to allow it in rather then trying to bend reality to your desires. If you see the creative working through you in all things - whether it's peeling the potatoes, an exchange with the bus driver or cleaning the shower - this will naturally deliver you to a place where your overtly creative talents can be expressed more harmoniously. The support Tom mentioned can provide you with the psychological energy and nourishment you need to reconfigure your intent.

"I've done it, I've achieved a certain level - but all through willpower rather than connection to the self or source."

Yes, that's right. So, I suppose the trick is to re-route this will power in a different way so that there is a closer relationship to that core self. And since you appear to have a nature that is supportive and nurturing, this receptive, trusting and "innocent" form of conduct may lead you more quickly to where you'd like to be creatively. Paradoxically it means letting go and accepting yet planting the seeds for change. That often seems to have nothing to do with logic or the more rational "sensible" path. Once that intent has been seeded and you habitually see daily life through a different lens, things tend to happen quite unexpectedly because you're more in the present and thus allowing it in...

I very much feel for your situation. it's hard to find real beauty in the sweat and toil of making a living.

All the best with it and keep us updated.

 

[Lodestar]

Thank you Topal for your understanding and kindness.. :hugs:
I developed a very strong will as a child and it has helped me survive up to this point (..in the absence of a more refined philosophy) I'm currently reconnecting with my yoga and meditation routine - it's been impossible to maintain since I started my current career about 4 years ago - due to the early starts, intense work environment and exhaustion at the end of the days..

I knew this was a serious loss and put real effort into adding little bits of practice here and there, but it was never enough to reconnect or reenergise me from the energetic losses I was experiencing in my day to day life.

I've recently made two incredible connections with people I could work with artistically..but my self worth issues are a huge block. I feel the 'tomb' of my job - is somewhere I have built - to keep me safe from risk, rejection and intimacy with others.

My solution for now is to commit further to my yoga and meditation, somehow strengthen that connection to source and see what unfolds from that space.. Then try to be both sensitive to my safety needs and brave enough to engage with the world!

I will update.. :bows:

 

[Lodestar]

But it took me many years to grow out of the idea I had to fight my way through to fulfilment .

PS this is also definitely a key point I ponder.. my identity is very much tied to the struggle.. Who am I if there is no struggle? What happens when dreams come true.. Would I be able to deal with that? How about next week?

Thanks again