Job situation hexagram 10 unchanging and 12.1

[Senecatwo]

Hi there. I'm in a pretty bad way in life right now due to some mental issues I am struggling with. In the last post I made I talked about receiving 47.2 in regards to smoking cannabis, but it seemed to refer to the greater situation I am in, where I am very unhappy at my job and likely to get fired soon anyway if I don't quit. The only problem is that its the dead of winter and I don't have have anything else lined up. I live alone and pay my own bills, and going without a job for a month would likely find me homeless or close to it.

Yesterday I had to have a meeting with HR about the time I have been missing due to counseling appointments. I am violating their new attendance policy and was warned if I continue to miss time I will have to work extra hours to make it up. This was distressing to hear as it already feels like pulling teeth to be there.

I left early today as I kept bursting out in tears while working alone trying to count inventory. I am trying very hard to just slog through, and my emotions won't cooperate with me. It's like fighting a war with myself to get through each hour.

After arriving home and just laying with my eyes shut for awhile I asked the I Ching, sort of halfheartedly, "How screwed am I right now, on a scale of 1 to 10?" Of course I got hexagram ten with no changing lines.

Very screwed. I'm in the tiger's den, and only tiptoeing in the exact right way will get me through.

Disheartened by the answer, I asked what I need to do in order to return to stability in terms of work. I received hexagram 12 with changing line 1, moving to 25.

I'm having difficulty understanding this answer as an action or as advice. It talks about grass grouping together, connected by the roots in sod. Does this mean I need to pull up my roots and look elsewhere for work? Maybe somewhere where I fit in better? Or is there some kind of internal concept for inner work to slog through until I have some money saved or do indeed get fired?

Any help is appreciated.

 

[my_key]

Hi Senecatwo
Your world seems to be closing in around you at the moment making it very difficult to cope with life. Experiencing the feelings of overwhelm that you have spoken of and having to comply with work requirements for attendance could be pointers indicating you to take time out. Burn out is not well addressed just by plodding on regardless, but I'm sure you know that.

"How screwed am I right now, on a scale of 1 to 10?" Of course I got hexagram ten with no changing lines.

Hex 10 Fulfillment (Huang) carries a sense of longer term positive coming from this situation. You may well be in the tiger's den, yet it is important to remember, the judgement says the tiger will not maul you, especially if you proceed taking one step at a time. Particularly Hex 10 requires of you to discriminate between what are healthy and what are unhealthy steps for you to take. The more you can differentiate between the two, and tread a path of wellbeing the more you will be able to set things right in your world.

Disheartened by the answer, I asked what I need to do in order to return to stability in terms of work. I received hexagram 12 with changing line 1, moving to 25.

12 speaks to the Hinderances that you are encountering at the moment. Your situation is enwrapped in disasters that have come from the outside and brings a pending sense of spontaneous freedom from the things that have confused you. Something unexpected is about to happen.

12.1 speaks to the roots deep within you that are at the moment not strong enough to counter the outer world. Start working on making one small part of your life freer that will encourage your roots to become stronger in character. This small start will raise up with it other roots which together will allow you, in time, to display a more robust or resilient nature.

Perhaps, this is saying that what you need to do is to take a more compassionate approach to taking care of you in whatever way that means for you. The suggestions you make in your final paragraph are all ways that you can bring compassion into your life and reduce the isolation, stress and anxiety that currently looms large. Pick one strand to start with and the associated positive physical and mental change will group with others to slowly return your life to one that you can tread more freely.

...of course you may see other messages within your readings.

Take Care

 

[Senecatwo]

Thank you for the thoughtful response my_key, your interpretation has a little more room for hope in it than the way I was thinking on my own.

Trying to be compassionate with myself while making the next obvious healthy choice seems like a wise approach right now. I certainly hope something unexpected happens for the better, as you are bang on the money with regards to a feeling of successive disasters I can't control.

What I can do right now is try to get into a good place mentally and weigh my options from there. Thanks again for the perspective.

 

[rosada]

I’m seeing 12.1 as saying a lot of us are coming to the realization that living a life - doing a job - that is totally disconnected from our inner feeling is simply no longer sustainable. So know that you are not alone in your sense that working a dead end job ain’t right!
25. Innocence suggests being able to get back in touch with what feels right for you. This makes me think looking into a different way of making your living is your first step. Even if you aren’t able to change employment immediately the very idea that you’ve decided to do this may help you keep your sanity where you are for a little longer.
Astrologically the planet Pluto is at the last degrees of the sign Capricorn just now. Pluto is the planet ruling power struggles, death and rebirth and transformation. At the last degree this indicates many major cycles ending. We see these on the global scale with the death of Queen Elizabeth indicating the end of an era, with Putin’s war, major power struggles between political parties in the U.S., and on and on. So it’s a vibration that is pushing everything to extremes to break out of restrictions and then activate personal freedom when Pluto goes into Aquarius - the sign of freedom and independence - the first of March.. Perhaps this is manifesting in your world as this power struggle with the higher ups at work where you are needing some free time. I wonder if you stick with it while looking for new opportunities if you will find a way out in March?

 

[Senecatwo]

rosada what you're saying about the astrological energy makes a lot of sense, as this attendence policy/trouble at work isn't even a personal happening so much as an unfortunate and widespread phenomena that is affecting everyone who works there. I just have my own issues which are compounded by it.

March is around when things should thaw a bit and when my birthday comes, so I hope the energy does shift by then. It seems like the obvious choice here is to do my best to find something else when I can, and ride things out as gently as I can until I finally move on.

I'm very attracted to the idea of independent income, I just don't know where to begin or what I could do that is of use.

Thank you for the information. I feel a little more optimistic than I did before posting.