Medication for depression? 27.3.6<>36

[Cometta]

I am sorry guys I have another request.
As I can't see clearly and feel powerless and frustrated I thought maybe I should see a professional and get medicated. But inside of me I am not enthusiastic about it, I am even relucant to define myself as depressive because once it starts O will see everything from this vintage point; I struggled many times with adverse conditions but always found my way out and recovered my joyful nature, all I needed is a new project, a new love, but this time I feel like I have no will and that life is not worth it. My life has changed completely, my standards too, but honestly it is more a surrender than true conviction, I still wonder about my dreams and feel sad I can't pursue them. I don't think about suicide at all, just that I lost this eagerness for life and passion to go and roam the earth. Perhaps that is depression? But is medication really effective or it is just another drug that will prevent me from finding strenght by myself?
As I asked the oracle it said 27.3.6<>36
Yes I feel wounded and I can't shine even from inside, and taking care of what I nourish myself with is the solution.

Line 3
Turning away from nourishment.
Perseverance brings misfortune.
Do not act thus for ten years.
Nothing serves to further.
Line 6
The source of nourishment.
Awareness of danger brings good fortune.
It furthers one to cross the great water.

Does Yi reflect my fear of drugs and encourages me to do it.
Or
It will not provide me with the nourishement I need, and it could become an addiction, but if I stay vigilant about it (with the care of a professional) it could help me cross this phase.


Thank you again for reading me, would really appreciate some help.

 

[Cometta]

I just read Lise commentary and it confirms what I think:
Line 3
Feelings have a tendency to fall asleep when they have to wait. Sometimes an impulsive, maybe foolish, act is better than becoming dull. Dullness can cause much greater disaster than an occasional foolishness.
I am pro jumping cliffs, but as it doesn't give any results only the momentary excitement I am ashamed of myself and am afraid to act like this again.

Line 6
Spiritual food is the source of every kind of food, even of the daily bread. When the soul is nourished, very little and simple food will be enough to survive. When the soul is starving, even the best food is not enough. Many people postpone a certain death because their soul is still too much alive. Waiting for a grandchild to be born, or a wish to be fulfilled.
Yes yes I know, when I am happy inside people wonder if I am stupid because my conditions are far from satisfying. So again I doubt myself because after all I have no tangible possessions or the minimun good living everyone tend to. I don't want to be delusional.

 

[rosada]

I agree with your first interpretation. I read “turning away from nourishment - do not act thus” as you being advised not to refuse the medication and “The source of nourishment, awareness of danger brings good fortune” as saying you know yourself, you’ll know if the drugs are helping or just numbing and therefore trying the meds will not hold you back but rather assist in you moving forward. “It furthers one to cross the great water.”
This reads to me like you may not need to be taking meds forever but long enough to get a strong sense of how you feel when you are in the right zone And thus will be able to maintain the positive vibe even without drugs.







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[tigerofshaolin812]

Hello Cometta,
I don’t know what this reading means, but I can say that I take an antidepressant and I believe it does help me. I used to think my depression was just unhappiness related to circumstances but now I believe there is more to it than that. And I don’t think I’d be doing so well without my medication. I hope you get whatever help you need. And know you’re not alone. A lot of people have had depression.

 

[Cometta]

Hi Rosada,

This reads to me like you may not need to be taking meds forever

Many thanks to you, your reading of the advice as a temporary solution brings me relief. Phew! I really don't like drugs; I am grateful for my health but being stubborn makes me a good candidate for addiction.
As you mention if I refuse the treatement it will be harder to succeed alone. 'Waiting for a complete cycle of 10 years' makes sense.

“The source of nourishment, awareness of danger brings good fortune” as saying you know yourself, you’ll know if the drugs are helping or just numbing

To be honest I don't know myself anymore, what you called the right zone is rather a large field of nuances that I thought of as a good thing, like being open, but after all it is just confusion and it doesn't give me any strong sense of self.
I should learn to trust. I couldn't see clearly without your caring.
Thank you

 

[rosada]

Perhaps it would be helpful for you to interpret “The source of nourishment, awareness of danger brings good fortune” as being advice to pray. That is perhaps the I Ching is saying “Consider that there is a divine Source that created us and knows our strengths and weaknesses.” So don’t hesitate to ‘cross the great water’ as in pray, go to that higher vibration and ask for whatever you need, particularly that you be protected from any danger.

 

[Cometta]

Hi Tigerofshaolin,
I have million questions for you, first thank you for the positive feedback about your experience, the exemples I see around me are not encouraging. I can't judge but I know when social support lacks it is difficult to navigate life's changes and I have seen people take their lives when they were really lonely even with medications. Sometimes all it takes is a good talk to lift someone's spirit. But it sends me back to the will, if one is not willing to go with a positive flow does it matter if he gets help? Again I maybe over estimate the power of the will?

I used to think my depression was just unhappiness related to circumstances but now I believe there is more to it than that.

That is what I have problem processing. I want to be good but I can't find the ressources inside of me to get me going. When offered help I have no other choice than adopt what others think about my situation, will or not. I accept, trusting they have good intentions and hope to recover my connection to myself through them.
Maybe it takes medication to balance back my brain chemicals as a necessary starting point to recover my willpower and become a healthy social being without draining them with my whinings and complains?

 

[tigerofshaolin812]

I wish I had an answer to that, Cometta, but I don’t know. I have noticed for me just looking forward to the simple things seemed to help a lot. A nice hot cup of coffee and fresh air and a nice cool breeze. And cool drinks of ice water. Ahhhh

 

[Cometta]

Perhaps it would be helpful for you to interpret “The source of nourishment, awareness of danger brings good fortune” as being advice to pray. That is perhaps the I Ching is saying “Consider that there is a divine Source that created us and knows our strengths and weaknesses.” So don’t hesitate to ‘cross the great water’ as in pray, go to that higher vibration and ask for whatever you need, particularly that you be protected from any danger.

That was my first thought, to turn to god and hear the truth. I am a liar and a fraud.