Mind: Lost and found.

[moses]

Hello All,

I know that if anyone has read my posts before you maybe well aware of my situation.

If not, all the better.

Quick overview: I grew up as a boy of coulor in deep South London in the 70s and 80s to a family of meager means, I am now a freelance Composer living in south Italy (one of the most racist places on earth! Why I do it to myself I don't know! It's even more racist than 70s SouthLondon! )...... Anyway, I am trying to make a point before I continue......

I DON'T KNOW WHAT GIVING UP ACTUALLY MEANS!!!! I DONT KNOW WHAT THOSE WORDS MEAN! AND I DON"T HAVE IT IN ME...... (I'd make an amazing husband)... I'M warning you because the post is coming up!!!

Reason for the intro is. After posting a couple of days ago Yxeli very compassionately told me off. Great advice and Interpretation not withstanding (and most appreciated too). I was also most grateful for the interpretations and advice I received from Mirian. Between the two of them I was able to calm down and get to chilling. As much as a Buddhist Aquarian can. (Believe it or not! Or is that an oxymoron?)

Nevertheless and needless to say, after a while of chilling out, relaxing...or chillaxing as Dr Yxeli ordered me to do... After re-reading my posts and answers, I could see very well the pure unadulterated fear and desperation in the questions themselves. I remember "CallingCrane" pointing that out to me too. Very interesting indeed... Thanks again for your advice Mirian and Yxeli.

So this morning after finding some semblance of center, I asked Yi for some advice. I didn't have to go far. And i warn you, it may seem like I have asked the same questions again. But not quite and certainly not in proximity.

Ok... you get the picture... here it comes.... Another relationship post. But this time it even looks positive to me

Question 1: What do I need to know about my situation with ****** that will help me to do the right thing from now on?

answer: 45.4 > 8

I also asked Yi: What is my best course of action to attract ****** back into my life as my lover?

answer: 8.1.5 > 24

And: What is my role in the bonding?

answer: 46.1.5 > 5

I know, I know...ok, ok. The answers are similar. But, I think I wanted to make a point here that these answers suggest far more a feeling of things between my woman and I are more "meant to be" than one may have previously understood. I also appreciate that these answers suggest a long process... And I am up for the long haul, I mean, why stop now?

ADVICE NEEDED:

But I am at a slight loss as to how I should begin. Or whether I am just continuing along the same lines suggested to me by Yxeli. I hate waiting at the best of times. That said, waiting with a whole bunch of good food to eat and drink? That I can do! Does anyone have any Ideas?

Thankyou for listening, reading, listening..... or whatever

I hope to hear from you soon.

Moseseses

BTW: I know 13 may not exactly bode well for relationship. But call me oldfashioned. For me FRIENDSHIP is super important in longterm relationship. All relationships I'd say. I often wish I was better friends with my parents, god rest there souls. But hey, that's me. Laters.

 

[meng]

I was able to calm down and get to chilling. As much as a Buddhist Aquarian can. (Believe it or not! Or is that an oxymoron?)

Very funny and clever. I played with a bass player for years who was/is a maddening Aquarius, creative genius, impossible personality; likeable... but a practicing Buddhist, well he did have a strong spirit, and was generally immovable as a mountain, so in his way, yes, that too.

 

[meng]

To Moses,

Question 1: What do I need to know about my situation with ****** that will help me to do the right thing from now on?

answer: 45.4 > 8

Hang out together, get to know each other.

 

[moses]

Ohhh Thankyou Meng!

Nothing like getting to the point!
Love it!

xxx

Moses

 

[precision grace]

Ah..the curse of aquarianism. The reason I ended up in most of my relationships is because I really really wanted to be friends with those people and being in a relationship with them seemed like the only way to get that.

What do I need to know about my situation with ****** that will help me to do the right thing from now on?

Bradford says of 45.4 - the position is not appropriate.


Why do you want this person so desperately? That is the actual question you should be asking ragazzo

 

[moses]

What do I need to know about my situation with ****** that will help me to do the right thing from now on?

Bradford says of 45.4 - the position is not appropriate.


Why do you want this person so desperately? That is the actual question you should be asking ragazzo

I am sincerely starting to consider that question now. I am actually starting to feel a shift in my own feelings toward her. Its weird. I hate to speak to soon. but there is a feeling coming over me. I wonder if this is the beginning of the 49.4.5 I had. Something is happening to me Precision Grace. Something I was not expecting at all.

Oh BTW I did ask that question back in July 27th and I got 61.2.5 27
(Actual Question:Why do you think I am so transfixed on success with *****?

Any thoughts on that? I'll be honest with you.... I didn't understand it at all, however, I did read an old post about 2 and 5 lines changing and its link to soulmates. I know for sure the whole Twin soul/soulmate thing however different can be extremely harsh on the man. The dance can be painful... but if overcome, a true victory of life.

Anyway, what a strange 45.4 Bradford has there. Its like the antithesis of Wilhelm. Well... each to their own. So you're an aquarian are you? I would imagine there are probably 50% of the little mites on this forum.

As an aquarian, are you prone to sudden switches in feelings?.... Like all of a sudden realising there is an injustice somewhere and acting accordingly but from a place that transcends emotion almost. Its like a deeper sense of right and wrong or justice(?)

Well..... I think I'm starting to feel something like that. I remember when I was young... I have it then, like this real sense of being totally devoted to a cause or a belief or a person. Then at some point experiencing or sensing something out of place that no longer fits with nobility. Not superiority, I actually don't like that word in the Wilhelm Yi Jing.. I prefer nobility. Anyway..... I'm feeling something like that now.

Thanks for asking. Its a good question. BTW, I think this woman is my Soulmate. Or one of them. And I think she knows it too. I also think she is afraid to say it. And I am afraid to say it. Hence we have never discussed it and I for one probably never will. I think when we started to have problems we were both soooo disappointed because we thought that being soul mates meant no work. When infact I believe it means 10 times the work. Such is this plane of existence. All of the problems we have are nothing but further proof to me that we are.People that have never even met me speak against me. People that have never seen me speak to my ex about me like I am something from out of a book or a film. Legendary things like he is 7ft tall and has blue hair to he is a heroine addict. I am clearly neither , but this status is somewhat from a myth. I am famous here in this small city in the south. But not one soul knows me. I am truly Wilhelm's Wanderer here.

Well... You did ask!

Moses

I could say more but I'm actually starting to bore myself!.... Another time maybe p-Grace?

 

[precision grace]

well,Moses, it's like this: I am an Aries with Cancer rising and Moon, Venus and Ascendant Node in Aquarius. So while not an Aquarian proper, when it comes to the matters of love and relationships at least, I get it. And the whole holier than thou attitude too No, I kid. I meant the feeling of transcendence, the interconnectedness and the abstract cause being somehow more important than the practical every day fact.

your situation sounds Very Dramatic. Like an Opera. What sort of composer are you?

 

[dragona]

Hello there (we A. should have a secret nerdy "handshake")
being an artistic, double Aquarius with inclinations towards Bouddhism and the Moon in a sensitive sign, living near Italy and struggling with this weird, sudden realisation that something with my Opposite should work even tho he was made of solid granit, could say why you want to be with her. Cos it makes sense to you. Really does. You spent hours and days thinking about it and you have decided. We are fixed signs, never mind the talk of how weird we can get, we are friends and loyal people if we are the good representatives of the sign. But we can get stubborn about wrong things, its uncanning. The energy you put into this probably wont be returned in the same ammounth, it is better to savour it. (Feel free to remind me latter.)

45.4 "Great good fortune, no mistake" You want more exclusivity, broken up but in the same company of friends? It is not only for you to decide, you only can do so much, don`t ruin everything by overdoing, you are in a position of weaker one here. http://www.iching123.com/45_text.htm

8.1,5 When you know, in your heart also, it is the right union for you to seek, make an offering, a gesture of that kind but leave it up to her to decide, she decides on her own reppetitive surrender.
Btw, Moon is leaving our relationship sector, so there is a feeling of an urgency in the air,-makes us struggle with the need of some sort of settling things down but .....good luck, d.