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Q: will I ever make music again? A: 14.2.3.4.6 changing to 24

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Hi, I'm new to this community - and relatively new to I-Ching as well, tbh. I'd be really thankful if you could help me out with this reading I got.

A quick premise: I've been facing some major setbacks last year, as I had no other choice but move back with my parents, after 10+ years spent in a different city, due to a very dry spell regarding jobs/money. To make matters worse, in the previous months I've also started finding myself gradually excluded (until I was definitely cut off) by my main circle of friends there in the city, mainly as a consequence of leaving the band I was playing with - which involved some of said 'friends' - and breaking up with one of its members, who didn't want to publicly acknowledge our relationship to the very same people we both hung out with. I've been feeling quite abandoned and isolated in that period, which probably contributed to make me more and more depressed by the day. Altho I managed to join another band one year later, I made some new friends, and also started dating a new person, as soon as things seemed to be looking brighter for once.. well. New person dumps me almost out of the blue, after 4 months of dating. New friend moves abroad forever. And meh, whatever, I start getting used to people coming and going.. But then I receive some very bad news regarding the illness of a close family member, which - coupled with financial struggles - definitely sets the stage for my coming back home. Needless to say, I had to leave that newly formed band as well.

Thus said, altho I'm at least happy everything turned out to be ok with this family member in the end, as they finally healed, reality is it's been more than 6 months of me staying here and while depression reached a point from where you can't really dig any deeper than that, and you could only start looking up, I'm now finding myself panicking about my future, and wondering if I'll ever get out of this or if I'll ever be able to go back to making music again. Ok I know I'll eventually 'get out' of this, I'm just afraid it will take an awful lot and an iron will - I'm not in my 20s anymore, which adds to the pressure. Surely I'm grateful my parents are still alive, I got a roof over my head, some food to eat and an internet connection. But as for everything else, I've never felt this lost and lonely in my entire life. It's not much the fact I've never really liked this town, or that I don't know anyone here, or that my family isn't exactly a shrine of peace, love and balance (let's just say I can't be totally myself around them), and as you get older anything 'new' becomes a lot of work. It's more the feeling of total uncertainty, a new fear of failure and rejection, knowing I have to build everything from scratch, AGAIN, and this time with the disvantage of not having even some sort of basic independence to start with anymore.

How would you then interpret this I Ching reading? Is hexagram 24 to be read as an actual 'returning' to music, and to life in general?

Sorry if the premise was not-so-quick after all, but I felt the question needed some more detailed background.
 

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Hi,

Reading your post and your cast the speach I link came into my mind. Things sound quite difficult at the moment but 24 has a quality of recovering, and hex 14, as others also confirm, comes in times we fell as if we have nothing.

So, the brief intepretation of your casting is : make good art. Cheesy as it may sounds, I feel express well what you got, at least in my eyes.

[video]http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ikAb-NYkseI[/video]
 

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You are welcome :)

It's not just an encouragement it's your casting that it hopeful. :)
There is a potential for the light to return (24) and Yi says you got what is needed to overcome this dry spell (14.2, 14.6). Lines 3 &4 can been seen as some useful ways to approach this situation. It's a lovely reading !

It has been a bad week, in regards to result , at my work. Our team is the worst one and we are all fell a bit disappointed. There is a board we announce our results and while a person went to put a sale, I told her to change the result so we reach the goal, just for fun. Everybody, included my supervisor , liked the idea so here we are , having not only reach put surpass our goal.:D We "celebrated" our "achievement" and had a good laught. Heheheh.

Make good art !!!!
 
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"It's an artist's obligation to suffer." Just don't go cutting off your ear or other body parts.

I agree, what anemos posted IS an interpretation of your reading, not just a pep talk vid.

What you possess is yours, so be thankful for that, but it's up to you to 'curb the dark and further the light.' Adversity is just part of the package. Behind most every overnight success is a lot of failures, paying your dues. A quick view of your lines:
2. A big wagon for loading. This speaks to a means, a method, often a team of horses, support, mobility. All the talent in the world will go nowhere until it hits the bricks. That could mean many auditions, rehearsals, more failures, more rejection and humiliation and unbelief. Doesn't matter; if you really want it badly enough, get to work on building that big wagon.
3. A Prince offers it to the son of heaven. Use your faith, just do the work without much focus on the goal. 'If you build it, they will come.'
4. Make a difference between you and your neighbor. Be an individual. Don't get trapped in the cover bands that go nowhere. If you team with others, go with originals.
6. He is blessed by heaven. This is conditional upon the above, and you may need to rethink your idea of success.

24 is the return of the light, and that's found when you return to your true self.

There are no guarantees, but you will have a much better shot at it if you get that wagon found or built, and get it rolling. Maybe the next one won't be it, and you may have to build another, and another. If you're talking about playing the majors, there can be no compromise, and you may have to sacrifice a great deal. Go big or stay at home. Or, there's always the option to live a "normal" life, get married, have kids, and play weekends or in a P&W band. Nothing wrong with that either. There are many ways to use a great possession.
 

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thank you very much both anemos and sooo for the useful and detailed insight. I find the 'fake it til you make it' approach very funny indeed, and somehow necessary (even Gaiman admitted he cheated to land his desired job, lol), but that attitude needs to defeat the 'crippling self doubt' mindset first I guess (Gaiman himself also recognizes the existence of the 'imposter syndrome'). it's the eternal battle with ourselves after all. sometimes, even if you know it's YOU getting in the way of YOURSELF, you can't win simply because of your own stubborness. and when you DO win, it's because you shifted that same stubborness in the right direction instead.

I also used to agree with the concept of 'go big or stay at home' - because what's the point of injecting this world with some more mediocrity, when we're already loaded? but then again, isn't that the same idea behind the legendary, fearsome 'perfection obsession' ? who decides what's 'mediocre' or not? what's even 'success' indeed? surely you can't be the best judge for yourself. if it was for me and my impossible standards - for instance - then nothing would ever get done at all, for how much of a merciless critic I could be sometimes. we never did covers exactly because of that, with both the bands. also, you tend to judge even your past efforts under the harsh light of failure, often regardless of the feedback. because we just do, it's our nature. the last thing you want is finding yourself and your bubble suddenly blown by the eventuality of a bursted illusion, where you've been thinking so great of your work and your capabilities all this time, only to suddenly realize it was frankly ****, you're an inept, and people have been just 'tolerant' with you, either because of sympathy, or compassion, or you just got lucky. you see how tricky it is. and I think at this point line 6 is just warning against that: 'you may need to rethink your idea of success'.
definitely thinking too much never did any good, but in that sense, if thoughts ARE actions and therefore things, it might have to be about re-doing the idea of success, for whatever 'success' means.

thanks again for the kind replies.

/hugs
 
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Appreciate your feedback. It's helpful to all of us as it is your reading and your thoughts on it that matter most.

Btw, I've been down that road so I can identify with the struggle.
 

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