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I was supposed to have a good job with a reasonable income, be recognized in my field, and have a successful love/family life.
I asked "What prevented me from having the life I expected?" and got 48.3> 29
The source was there, but without any clear vision to draw its water?
It's about past; so not that important...
Then I asked: "How should I remove the blockage in the way of my expected life?" and got 49.1.4> 39
Looking at previous posts with same cast, the message seems to be: although I want a radical change, it's impossible; so I've better to change my view and struggle with current obstacles
Sometimes I ask myself what the benefit of education and cultural investment was, if I am destined to have a mediocre life?
At this point of my life, the authority is internal even if real people had a prominent role in shaping it. As you know, it's not easy to separate the components after the Super-ego is shaped. Now, to limit myself to the question and try to find a practical answer, I can speak about thoughts. Sometimes (not always) I'd been negative, overly negative- maybe it's been a preventing factor?However can't say how much the negativity was "wrong" given the external conditions.If it's literal, think of who used to have command of your life. An incompetent parent perhaps? If it's metaphorical, think of your inner ruling thoughts.
I see. I think many of us, if not all, dream about a perfect life; it's a part of story. The other part prevented me from imagining much of a dreamy life for the future: I grown up in a working-class neighborhood and despite artistic, cultural tendencies in my family, I had to deal with people with different backgrounds in a tough outer world. I'm not offending the working class: I & my best friends come from there. You find good & bad people in all social layers. The matter is, the harsh reality being more visible there, you can't see the life with rosy glasses.like you, was made to believe that I would have great success professionally, that I would certainly have a family and children, that life is fair, that life is beautiful, that everything happens for a reason, and a lot of other similar modern western garbage. A quick sober look at recent history, and even at the news worldwide as we speak, show a totally different picture.
Yes, I do have such a tendency. Well, in my attempts to create change, I sometimes realized the outcome didn't bring me satisfaction, only external approval; so decided to save what I found really valuable rather than striving for outward success.49.1 is being wrapped up in luxury, most probably being complacent with the wealth you already possess. The person in 49.1 doesn't want to make a move because they're all cosy right where they are. Plus, the yellow hide feels protective. Then all of a sudden, and abruptly, the person goes directly to the extreme of turning the tables, of creating a coup-d-etat, just like that. It's quite a strange sequence, like a leisurely lady lying on the couch covered in fur in one minute, and in the next minute springing up and announcing a revolution and wanting to take the upper hand.
Helpful indeed!I hope I've helped even a bit!
By mediocre I mean less than what could be; like a potential being semi-realized. Then who sets the criteria? Again, I'm not fully aware of influences in my life. I just know I don't feel secure enough financially; nor am I romantically satisfied as i haven't found a good partner. All I could was to shun harmful people so that they don't destroy what I already have.again, mediocre according to whose criteria?
Some of my choices opposed the script and I don't regret it. But I haven't even secured the life I find compatible with my personal values.Do you trully crave these things with your whole being? Or is it just what the script had for you? Each to their own - this scenario of steady job and wonderful family is extremely rare.
As I said, mediocre doesn't mean unconventional; it means lacking the elements you find personally satisfying. For example, a cheep, strange life in downtown with all cultural centers, odd people and counterculture can be ideal for an artist.People find loads of pleasure in a variety of activities which are not to the script. A mediocre life can be blissful, depending on circumstances. Let me know your thoughts on all this.
I saw the potential, as I wrote in my reply to diamanda, to live the life I wanted: to be financially secure and have a satisfying love life- in other words, why not getting there? I especially used the alternative "love/family [life]" to put emphasis on romantic fulfillment instead of structure.Why do you think you were 'supposed to have' all those things ? Even if you had them you would still have had loss and troubles, why do you believe in this sort of perfect life.
I absolutely agree that these are the main materials, so to speak, of happiness; and always tried to go out of situations that [risked to] harm them even if the outer image was fascinating.If you have freedom, health, enough to eat, so much but you keep on saying you don't have this perfect life.
Yes I've felt as I was struggling more or less alone from the very beginning of young adulthood. I wanted to have a lifestyle different from what was going on my surroundings with all the traditional values I refused to accept. It's been more than a decade, and I tell you absolutely nothing happened during its first half. So frustrating for an inexperienced girl eager to change everything without knowing how. Maybe the only benefit was to be assured I didn't want that type of life. Stable friends with similar values/preferences appeared after I hit 25. Then I started to find helpers and places to concretely change my lifestyle- but am not there yet.It's early days (49.1) but there is coming a time for quite a change (49.4). It's difficult for you as you believe you struggle on alone (39) but that can change.
I explained what I consider to be a mediocre life in my last post (in reply to diamanda who asked the same question).So what's a mediocre life ?
Yes I've been there- maybe still am? As told to Trojina, I found people with similar tendencies somehow late (childhood friends weren't best friends as I grew up with different values, then preferred a lifestyle even different from what I was raised to live). I met lots of people who didn't share my views: a repeated pattern (29) of wrong connections.48.3 suggests to me that although you've got what it takes, somehow - like a rock star in a backwoods cafe - you haven't had the right connections. 29 makes me think it's not to late to take some steps. You've got success in your heart, don't be shy!
Hard to say; however makes me think of social surroundings, which seems to be the main issue according to the previous reading. This part boosts the idea:What do you think the "form of government" might refer to here? Something outside yourself is no longer serving you and needs to go. Your job? Your daily routine? Your diet? Your drugs? Whatever, it's a very encouraging omen for you being able to re-design your life!
I'm a loner- it doesn't always help; true.There's a tendency to try to go it alone so the advice is specifically to find friends
I just can't tell you how drastic the changes in social structure and values around me were during past 30 years- it always happens everywhere in the world, yes; but the pace has been dizzying in more traditional societies. Our parents mention this. They did their best to raise us according to the value-system of their time, then came a day when the children refused the values, and the world wasn't the same, either. I even can't compare the current society with that of 10 years ago. It even affects a more eccentric person.Bottom line, I say these hexagrams are telling you your life didn't turn out as expected because you were raised to live in a world that just simply doesn't exist anymore
Change... I still don't know how/where to create it. I need to make a serious plan for change and stick to it...now you have to give yourself permission to stop waiting for that Knight, or that dream job or whatever it was that never came to The Well at 48.3. So save yourself. Change your clothes, change your religion. Dare to boldly go where no one has ever gone before. If you don't give up, it gets better.
Yes I've felt as I was struggling more or less alone from the very beginning of young adulthood. I wanted to have a lifestyle different from what was going on my surroundings with all the traditional values I refused to accept.
It's been more than a decade, and I tell you absolutely nothing happened during its first half. So frustrating for an inexperienced girl eager to change everything without knowing how. Maybe the only benefit was to be assured I didn't want that type of life. Stable friends with similar values/preferences appeared after I hit 25. Then I started to find helpers and places to concretely change my lifestyle- but am not there yet.
I explained what I consider to be a mediocre life in my last post (in reply to diamanda who asked the same question).
As I said, mediocre doesn't mean unconventional; it means lacking the elements you find personally satisfying. For example, a cheep, strange life in downtown with all cultural centers, odd people and counterculture can be ideal for an artist.
your 30s will be a time of great spiritual development
Well... now at the beginning of my life's fourth decade
While I don't know what waits for me during 30s, I started to sense the old is going, the new is on its way a few months before I turned 30. I saw many things change during past six months: long-lasting relationships/situations/emotions disappeared suddenly as if they evaporated (the reasons were definitely building up for a long time- they just needed to reach a certain point); leaving me lots of space and energy to create new situations. I don't exactly know where I stand & how to define the current status.You're at a natural turning point in life ~ your 30s will be a time of great spiritual development ~ exciting!
That’s not true: you are a recognized I Ching eminent expertI don't have a good job with a reasonable income, am not recognised in any field
While I don't know what waits for me during 30s, I started to sense the old is going, the new is on its way a few months before I turned 30. I saw many things change during past six months: long-lasting relationships/situations/emotions disappeared suddenly as if they evaporated (the reasons were definitely building up for a long time- they just needed to reach a certain point); leaving me lots of space and energy to create new situations. I don't exactly know where I stand & how to define the current status.
Now I know you're 30 not 40 there's even less cause for lament, there's so much to look forward to - you go girl
I asked "How is the Saturn-Pluto conjunction likely to affect my situation" and got 48.1.4.5> 34.This Winter Saturn, the planet of harsh reality, is coming up against Pluto, the planet of death and rebirth, in the sign Capricorn and the result is human consciousness is going through a major wake up call.
That's written ten months ago (how quickly the time passes!).This Winter Saturn, the planet of harsh reality, is coming up against Pluto, the planet of death and rebirth, in the sign Capricorn and the result is human consciousness is going through a major wake up call. We are no longer able to float around in the La-La land of vague fantasies.
We are having experiences causing us to have to focus on the here and now. Mundane chores require our attention and this can cause us to be discouraged if we perceive these repetitive routines as our final destination.
I asked it in October 2019."How is the Saturn-Pluto conjunction likely to affect my situation" and got 48.1.4.5> 34.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
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