sent. how did i do? 28.6 > 44

[legume]

hello. i've been enduring a lot of stress at work lately, not knowing where i might move, as the whole department's been undergoing a transformation, so kinda living in, what i call, a corporate anarchy at the moment, where everyone is trying to fight for themselves or not drown, and make themselves and their needs both seen and met...

it's been ages since i allowed to drag along any office issues in my head back home, generally i'm a fan of anarchy, as much as taoism, and been practicing letting go and trying to keep my mind busy with corporate nonsense only for the paid 8 hours a day or for as long, as i need to stay there... but this time i felt someone really overstepped, not only mine, but other's boundaries and i confronted them directly, to the point of hearing - i don't want to talk about this anymore, so i wished the person and the witnesses a good evening, but was all shaken up and stormed off almost crying.

i took some time to calm down and felt it would help to apologise to anyone actually involved in the situation, as well as the person whom i previously confronted (as felt i might have come across too strongly) so composed a mail and kept asking I Ching, with each version, what if i just send it. also tried to take some advice in what's best to do, considered what if i just wait... but eventually i ended up with the question & answer as in the title.

28.6 is totally clear to me, it was obviously too much for me emotionally, i reached my breaking point and probably i got way over my head with this approach, as i kept worrying til late in the evening, when i actually sent a reply... misfortune for me (missed dinner) but there was no blame in it, i guess... also my mail, as always, might have been too much for others, i (obviously) have trouble keeping my messages short, yet it could have been of great importance to other people as well, plus hopefully i explained my reasons clearly enough to remain free of blame also in their eyes? and, funnily enough - the person initially did go over my head, as in would take my original mail out of context and pass it on to our superior, which is what really ticked me off in the first place... i just added few more people to the mix in my reply (who were part of the original conversation anyway)...

i have trouble reading 44 in this particular scenario though. i predict this whole situation got blown out of proportion and will most likely result in a meeting of some sort, but i'm not sure if there is any actual advice in it for me... shall i approach that person again or shall i wait to be approached? what in this case means to surrender (weirdly i often feel like the unmarriable maiden so the gender and office roles would really fit the literal judgment of the hex)? probably i shall just wait and see. i might update you about it, but any additional interpretation in the meantime is more than welcome. thank you...

 

[my_key]

how did i do? 28.6 > 44

28: Well you've gone and got yourself sucked into a crisis and now have to personally deal with the fallout.
28.6 - you got hit by a sucker punch and on top of that now you realise this was not the best way to address the situation.
44: Welcome what comes out of it (positive and negative) - what you have learnt about the whats, the wheres, the whos, the whys and the hows and where your behaviour and that of others has guided the situation. Reflect and join your inner and outer experiences together. It doesn't have to be the same next time!

Good luck

 

[rosada]

Fwiw-
The trigrams making up 44 are Wind below and Heaven above. it is the image of wind blowing all over the earth, observing but not stopping so the idea is of seeing all but not getting sucked in. Thus, it is advice that this is a situation where one might be tempted to become involved but it is better to move on. As far as a reading on how you did I see it aa advice that it is best not to dwell on this situation, just move on.

 

[legume]

thanks, my_key, for the reply. i never really focus on the main image or judgement of the first hex if there are less than 4 lines changing within, but as you gave interpretation for 28 as a whole, i'd be curious to learn where is the idea of crisis coming from?

as an update, there was no actual meeting happening today or confrontation whatsoever with any of the people involved, while the message i sent remained without any reply. there is some other interpretation that came to mind though, as only earlier this month i got a similar reading (28.6) when feeling unreasonably emotional and overwhelmed. i asked back then what were those feelings all about, while i was waiting for a bus and then the bus just passed by and did not stop, so i got extremely upset and started walking and as i walked the tears started to flow...

yesterday night, once the whole issue described earlier finally left my mind, all other sorts of emotions crept in and i had a minor break-down and, seemingly for no particular reason (or too many of them) let myself cry for a while.

now, when simply looking at the elements of both hexagrams i see the change from lake into heaven, as if driven by the wind and it seems to me, that sometimes it's ok to just let ourselves have so-called weltschmertz, allow ourselves to feel it all instead of overintellectualising things... and maybe simply crying might be enough of a cathartic resolution?