Should I Buy Tickets? 11.2.5 > 63

[samoyedgrrl]

As many of you here on Clarity have walked alongside of me this past year as I have been on a journey of rediscovery, I thought I'd share the latest casting with you. A little back story to put this one in context, though...

The previous (bad) relationship I was in for 7.5 years was with a man who was a narcissist, one who went into nuclear meltdown mode anytime my focus was on anything that wasn't about him. He was very controlling and, well, a total loser and a waste of my time. (That's easy to say a year after breaking up with him.) I lost a lot of my identity and disconnected from friends and things that meant the most to me - things that brought me joy. I know, I know, you're all saying to yourselves the same things I am now. Why? Was he worth all that I gave up? Nope. Not even close. But that's what happens in abusive relationships, sadly.

So, I am in the process of rediscovering myself and all those things that make living so worthwhile. It's like Christmas morning each day as I open a new gift I give myself. In this case, I don't mind the re-gifting! LOL!!

I think my connection with my friend Rodney has opened my eyes and reawakened my passion for music once again (he's a musician). So, even if he and I never have that romantic relationship I hope for, I am grateful that he entered my life to help me find that part of myself again. I am now seriously thinking of getting back into a choir and I'm once again singing along with some of my baroque-period and opera favorites as I play them on my ipod. That's something I haven't done on a regular basis for years.

Keep in mind, I come from a family where music filled the home and I either sang or played a musical instrument since age 9. Every family member had a musical talent and every once in a while, Mom and I will still have our own "jam session"s (she at the piano, accompanying me while I sing). Needless to say, the ex was never around when we did that, as it would be "stupid" or "boring" as it wasn't about him.

At the college level, I had my choir classes paid for by one group's director at one point, as he needed me in his ensemble as his strong 2nd Soprano even after I transferred to another university. I totally dig the classics (especially chamber and baroque period music) and have sang in groups ranging in size from 12 to 250 members and loved every minute of it. I am starting to see how I sacrificed so much and got nothing in return.

As money is tight, I am worried about spending any unneccessarily. However, I have an opportunity to get season tickets to the symphony orchestra and a series of "Off-Broadway" musicals. I'd be spending just under $1,000 for two seats for 12 shows (from September - April). So, I asked my trusty friend, the IC, "Should I buy season tickets to both the musicals and symphony?" And got 11.2.5 > 63.

I think Yi is telling me that it is a risk that can be taken at this time, but I need to be realistic about my resources. However, in some other interpretations I see 11.2 as that I must stay determined on my continued path in order to make the transition from my previous way of living (without music, under the ex's control) to that of emotional fulfillment, as apparently there will be those who don't want me to better myself.

I love how 11.5 mentions living in harmony - so appropriate here. I think the IC is telling me that this is the right thing to do, as it will bring me happiness and set the stage (so to speak) for future growth in my life. Such an auspicious line.

I put the Hex 63 in the context of slamming the metaphorical door shut on the ex, who dictated what our social calendar was when we were together. Now it is up to me to make the decisions over what I will do for fun and entertainment. However, I've also seen in other interpretations that I am to prepare for the worst and hope for the best (possibly financially)? Could it mean that I go for the lowest priced option and save the remaining funds in case times are tough for me financially and I need the money later? I'm confused here.

I appreciate your insight on this fun casting. I've got Handel playing as I type this, as I'm in the mood to hear a live performance now!

 

[icastes]

It says that success is yours if you buy the tickets.

 

[samoyedgrrl]

Thanks, icastes! I will be making that purchase next week. In addition, I upped the ante a bit and jumped back into singing again. I just sent in the funds to take voice lessons for the remainder of the year. So, between the concerts and my own singing, I should be humming a few tunes during my normal working hours...LOL!

 

[ginnie]

I take it that 11.2 is your own singing and 11.5 is going out to the concerts.

When you go out, perhaps you won't be dressed in an evening dress and diamond-studded tiara. Don't let this bother you, and you'll have a great time! You'll be in your element.

I'm so happy for you. This is a wonderful reading.

 

[samoyedgrrl]

How cool, Ginnie! I never looked at it that way, but my own music and attending the concerts are in that casting, aren't they?

I think the IC was in its own way rejoicing my return to the arts. My tiaras are tarnished and the evening gowns no longer fit, so I think they'll be staying home. I am happy to have a "homecoming" of sorts and to feel in my element once again. Thanks for your insights here - I agree that it is a beautiful reading!

 

[samoyedgrrl]

Update

Had my first voice lesson today at the local University. I quickly realized just how out of shape I really am, and that further cemented my decision to take the lessons in the first place. However, as my teacher and I walked a hallway packed with college students ready for a class, I felt as though I was "home" again.

The atmosphere was fun, as the musicians joked with each other and chatted. It reminded me of my college days when I was in my best musical "shape". It was as if I had never left. The excitement of singing and feeling the challenge of being the best I could be came back quickly.

Makes me think that perhaps IC was telling me with the reading that although I would not be as good as I once was to not let that discourage me. I should keep at it - my persistence will result in a renewal of my talent and a successful new phase will begin in regards to my music. Interesting, eh?

 

[samoyedgrrl]

Another Update...

Thought I'd let you know that not only have the doors to my musical enjoyment been reopened, but that I am passing it forward to others. I heard the plight of a local school where kids could not afford musical instruments. The families of these students cannot afford them nor can the school. So, I contacted the teacher and found out what her needs were today.

Tonight, I ordered a flute for one of the kids. (I used to play flute years ago.) I cannot wait for it to come in so I can present it to the girl and listen to her play. That will be one time that a few missed notes will still sound like a beautiful symphony to me.

Perhaps that through music, I will be presented with opportunities like this to help others. I don't know who will be more excited when that flute arrives - that little girl or me? Perhaps music will heal me and fix my heart in many more ways than one...

 

[samoyedgrrl]

And another update....I was asked to sing at my ex-Administrative Assistant's wedding over the weekend. I did so with the help of my vocal coach to find a song and prepare it three days prior to the wedding. I would have said my performance was a "C", but given the reaction of my co-workers there who had no idea I could sing, they would have rated it an "A"! I'm just happy to have been part of her big day and the accolades from my colleagues was a lot of fun to boot!

 

[ginnie]

I would have said my performance was a "C", but given the reaction of my co-workers there who had no idea I could sing, they would have rated it an "A"!

ompom::claps:ompom:

 

[themis]

Happy for you, lady