This elusive 59.3

[Sayuki]

I am looking for a job and friends of friends offered me a variant. The problem is that it includes moving to a city where I had already lived for few years, but those were unhappy years. And mere thought of living there again makes me very, very upset. I have no other offers at the moment and if I don't have any within the next two weeks I will have to accept it. I know, it would be wisest just to wait and to let things unfold, but my anxiety makes me feel like a cornered mouse and affects my everyday performance. So I wanted to find out definitely if there is actually anything to fuss so much about.

I asked Yi "Is it beneficial to me to work in X?"
24.3 --> 36.
Hm... On reflecting on this, I think it is a 'mirror' answer, which depicts my current emotional state but does not shed light to the future events.

Next attempt, more specifically: "Will I work in X?"
59.3 --> 57.
I have read here and in the commentaries to the translations that this line suggests discarding selfish desires, so does it mean that I should shove up my desires and fears somewhere deep and get busy? Or that I will have to commit myself to the enterprise once the offer accepted? Or the question is going to work itself out? Or these evasive answers hint me it is better not to know now?
I have a strange feeling that these answers are so blurry because I ask wrong questions, kind of nudging me to ask something else but I cannot figure out how to formulate my query not to repeat myself.
Help and suggestions are welcome :bows:

 

[poised]

"Elusive 59.3"

Fey Wolf, the business-oriented Pathfinder I Ching gives what I consider a clear, direct answer
http://www.3rdmilieux.com/pathfinder.html

Hexagram 59 - "Flow"

This is a good time to accomplish something, child. A favorable time for travel, and consultation with the powerful. The flow at this time overcomes obstacles, uncovers corruption, and reunites parties and elements previously separated. Don't be afraid of acting spontaneously now

59.3

Immersing oneself in the flow of events can bring refreshment of the spirit. Great and challenging tasks may also demand your full energies for success.

Only you can decide what to do, but it would seem that going with the flow, which seems to be flowing toward that city you once didn't like, would bring you fresh energies for success. Perhaps you would have a different experience there now. Different times bring different experiences, hopefully.

As for 24, it points toward "Return," with the cautionary note in line 3:

Indecisiveness and uncertainty spawn peril of confusion in your priorities.

But you already know this. It would seem that both readings point toward attitude adjustment on your part leading to accomplishment. If you so choose.

Best wishes to you.

 

[wind]

Great explanation Poised! Bravo!

I do agree with Poised's interpretation. I always find it best to let someone else look for what I'm not seeing.

I see the 24>36 as you reflecting on those bad times for you. You're consulting with yourself on things that kept the brightness hidden in that time. I completely understand your hesitation of wanting to return to a place that brings up such bad feelings. What if by returning to yourself (as 24 suggests), you can change the outcome by making this transition and attach new experiences and memories to it?

I feel the unsettlement in what you're saying about feeling pressured into taking this job and relocating. You seem unwilling; yet you feel like this is really your only option. I see that 59.3 as being a good solid chance at something- if you allow it to be good. Sure, it's going to be a major change in location and attitude towards it all; but it's up to you to make it good- Like anything in life; it's your choice as whether it's good or bad.

Whatever you choose; I wish you the very best and pray your hopes are fulfilled.

 

[Sayuki]

poised, wind, thank you for paying attention to my question and taking your time to answer it :bows:

59.3
Immersing oneself in the flow of events can bring refreshment of the spirit. Great and challenging tasks may also demand your full energies for success.

Refreshment of spirit, challenging and great tasks - this is exactly what I am looking for. And to look for them in the city full of ghosts of the past... Seems unbelievable, right?) But I know, the way of life is the way of paradoxes, so I admit your point valid - despite how reluctant I feel.

I feel the unsettlement in what you're saying about feeling pressured into taking this job and relocating. You seem unwilling; yet you feel like this is really your only option.

You saw it through. Indeed, some time ago I realized that my profession is not my cup of tea and stagnation present in my life is partially an outcome of a wrong decision made in the past. So I retreated to my small native city to sort things out in peace and to find out what can I do to introduce changes into my life. This is why I fear so much to relocate to that city not having found answers: I am afraid to get stuck - again - with my old profession in the old surroundings.

Only you can decide what to do, but it would seem that going with the flow, which seems to be flowing toward that city you once didn't like, would bring you fresh energies for success. Perhaps you would have a different experience there now. Different times bring different experiences, hopefully.

I see that 59.3 as being a good solid chance at something- if you allow it to be good. Sure, it's going to be a major change in location and attitude towards it all; but it's up to you to make it good- Like anything in life; it's your choice as whether it's good or bad.

Your words remind me of an airbrush writing I have once spotted on the wall: "The most beautiful and horryfying thing about our lives is that everything is in our hands". The events are the empty bowls and it is we who fill them with our attitudes and reactions. Probably, one of the way to rebirth (24, the hex I get often recently) is to cast aside old attitudes, bitter reminiscenes and to fill the bowls again - now, more wisely. I don't know if I'll manage it, however, your interpretations are mostly favourable - maybe, they will inspire me to face my fears.
Anyway, unless my body dissipates - literally - I'll post an outcome to this reading.

And special thanks for your kind wishes

 

[wind]

Awe.. You're too kind Fey Wolf!

We all have had to face things we weren't really enthusiastic about... But when I think of those things and how I just sort of went along with whatever it is- Those always ended up being the best of times for me.

I think when we don't have such overwhelming expectations of anything you could have expectations of; we end up pleasantly surprised when we see things aren't nearly as bad as we thought they were going to be. Go in neutral and see how you genuinely feel.

I often find talking to myself yields the greatest results... After all, I am my own consultant.

 

[Sayuki]

Actually, I don't have any expectations at the moment at all Probably, wishes, but who is happy to be free of them? Rather try not to take a dim view of the matter at hand ompom: But I am sorry if I get voluble - quite the opposite to the real life.

We all have had to face things we weren't really enthusiastic about... But when I think of those things and how I just sort of went along with whatever it is- Those always ended up being the best of times for me.

I agree. Especially if to catch the 'right' mood.

And, poised, I wanted to thank you for the link to the Pathfinder. Usually, I am not much into the modern interpretations of the Yi Jing, but the one you cited seems to be relevent, at least in my situation. You probably heard of the so-called Internet paradox (over time, amount of useful information in the net increases, while possibility to find it decreases), so a good link is a treat.

 

[Sayuki]

Just to post what came out of it.

Actually, nothing
The times are not particularly favourable for small businesses here and it seems those people did not manage to establish theirs, so the matter worked itself out... dissipated.

So far, in my experience 59.3 came as:

• Dissolution of the problem or the subject of the question
• Acute need for resolving body tension/energy blocks
• Physical death
• Sign that time is not ripe for my plans (it came along with 59.4 - we had to regroup family members to battle a common problem, personal issues aside)

Each time I get this line, I expect that I am going to give myself away to achieve a goal, yet it has never yet turned out so - at least, directly

 

[altair139]

I think line 3 of hex 24 is talking about the possibility of you returning to that city and work
The place is full of unhappy memories, that's why having to come back is "stern and cruel" however there will be no fault. Since you asked "Is it beneficial", the Yi just gave you the answer: It will be hard on you emotionally.
Even if you indeed come back to that city, you won't find it easy to work at first. You will have to start fresh and grow gradually.
By the way, is the city in the south of your current place?

 

[Sayuki]

altair139, thank you for response.
You know, this might be true. Despite this matter is already settled, probability of having to return lingers. Actually, I did return to that city for a couple of months to attend courses. And I know I will have to return there more than once, at least because my mom lives there.
The courses were very developmental, but the general feeling did not change. I don't hate this city and admit it's various advantages. It's just empty for me, like in 46.3, and this is why I don't want to be bound by working there.

Nope, it's North West from my current location.