Too much abundance?

[Rasalila]

I'm trying to decide if going to grad school and raising my three kids is just going to be too much, and maybe I should just focus on getting them through school and eating healthy, gardening, not being stressed all the time. Then again, it would be so wonderful to really focus on me and my career and have some financial stability and independence. So I asked, how would it be to spend the next two years in grad school and got 55 unchanging. Assuming this meant, it would be hard and alot to deal with, I then asked, what would be the outcome of spending the next two years in school, as far as my financial stability and got 35.1.2.4 changing to 41. I'm taking this to mean that it would mean progress in my career and less stress?? I guess, I'm willing to have a stressful couple of years if in the end it will lead to a better career situation for me. I'm a massage therapist right now and I love it but it's hard on my body and not something I can do full time. Any insights would be wonderful. Thank you!

 

[Lilly-La]

Hi Rasalila,
Hex 55 is the sun at noon which might indicate you start with great enthusiasm but that will decline rather soon.

For Hex35.1.2.4 i have no idea.

You could as well ask the Yi simply: what is the best for me and my kids i can/shall/should do the coming 12 months?

How old are your children, if i may ask? Do you have family, friends around you who will help you with the kids while going to school? Are you sure there are no other factors like beeing short of money or health issues which could come up? Are you a very stable person? Are the kids very stable?

 

[Rasalila]

Hi, thanks for your response. By the time I'm planning on starting the program my kids will be 18, 15 and 10. I have help, and the kids are stable and I feel like I'm stable. Our money situation will be good because we're moving into a smaller house and reducing our monthly payments considerably. I'm in perfect health!

It makes so much sense when you say I will start with enthusiasm but that will soon wane. I think this is a fear I have since it seems to be a pattern in my life, starting things with a bang and quickly getting bored or overwhelmed. Maybe I'm scared of starting and quitting or finishing the program and then realizing I don't want to do what it takes to have a career in this field. I love being in school, but after I get out I'd have to do a good two years of pretty hard work in order to go into private practice. I'm scared that I lack followthrough.

 

[Rasalila]

Hi, thanks for your response. By the time I'm planning on starting the program my kids will be 18, 15 and 10. I have help, and the kids are stable and I feel like I'm stable. Our money situation will be good because we're moving into a smaller house and reducing our monthly payments considerably. I'm in perfect health!

It makes so much sense when you say I will start with enthusiasm but that will soon wane. I think this is a fear I have since it seems to be a pattern in my life, starting things with a bang and quickly getting bored or overwhelmed. Maybe I'm scared of starting and quitting or finishing the program and then realizing I don't want to do what it takes to have a career in this field. I love being in school, but after I get out I'd have to do a good two years of pretty hard work in order to go into private practice. I'm scared that I lack followthrough.

 

[Rasalila]

Ok, I'm replying to all my old threads. I did not apply for grad school and thank god i didn't. Lilly had asked about my health and I responded that I was in perfect health! Bullshit. I saw a nutritional therapist last fall and changed all of my eating habits while adding much needed supplements to soothe my adrenals, which were totally fried. NOW I feel like I'm in a really good health, which has calmed me down ALOT. Turns out I've been walking around with a leaky gut for pretty much my whole life, so even though I was eating well, I wasn't able to absorb the nutrients. I went through the GAPS diet, healed my gut, and maintain the diet now that I need to keep my gut in good shape. Oh my gosh, it's changed everything. I don't feel crazy anymore! I've enrolled in the Nutritional Therapy Practitioner program, a much less rigorous and less expensive program that makes a lot more sense for me. I want to help other people heal their bodies the way my nutritional therapist helped heal mine. This feels like a much more calm, rational decision then going to grad school. Thanks for all of your replies.