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The thing with 47.1 -- and many of the other lines in 47 -- is that there is some suggestion that it's a self-inflicted injury. My translation says:1. Should I go low contact? 47.1 > 58
The background to the situation (58) is interaction and discussion or conversation. But here instead of conviality and being my self, I am confined to a lonely dark tree stump for a long time. In essence this is how I feel inside in my communication with them because no matter how hard I try they mirror at me that I'm defective, deficient, in need of help and lonely and dark. However, communication with people who see me, I am free to be joyful and convivial. These worlds don't coexist in my family of origin.
Thanks Rosasa, your reading is accurate in practical terms.Just some added thoughts. Pretty much what has already been said..
47.1 - 58 here reads to me as a description of a kid whose been sent to their room and now he's waiting until he thinks it's okay to come out and resume contact - 58. So in other words to only delay or minimize contact won't break the old pattern where you are humiliated, sent away and at the mercy of when Mom reaches out again. So no, don't think in terms of just giving them a bit of "the silent treatment" because then you'll still be feeling bound to them, waiting on their approval and nothing changes.
23.1 - 27 Carrying on as this way is unsustainable, like trying to build on something that has no support, trying to warm your family by burning your own bed.
14.3 Offering it to heaven.
Stop all contact but more than just stopping, actively pray for the light to find them and do affirmations that you know you are whole and healed. Don't try to just suck it up.
40.5.6 - 29 . I see 29 here as emphasizing how forgiveness does not necessarily happen in one gesture.
29. Describes going through rough waters again and again until as we see in the Image that finally after many attempts the man masters the fear, calms the waters and continues on his path. So in answering her recognize you cannot change the relationship with one conversation - So I think you got the new regime off to a good start by keeping this last contact brief and focused but you have to continue to limit your conversations in this way and then you may eventually come to feel you can navigate this relationship appropreately.
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