What am I doing wrong? 19.1.2.3 > 15

[precision grace]

Er. So I asked the above question in relation to trying to get my head straight. In addition to all the emotional crap (excuse me) I'm having to deal from the whole unrequited love saga, I've also got labyrinthitis which really messes not only with one's sense of balance but clear thinking as well. So with all that in mind, and because I am really struggling to maintain calm and relaxed state, I asked - what am I doing wrong and got 19.1.2.3 changing to 15.

Now normally I would try and figure this on my own but in the context of the question asked I can't make any sense of it. Nobody is advancing with anyone. I'm completely on my own and definitely full of apprehensive caution. SO, can you help - what am I doing wrong?

Thanks so much:bows:

 

[arabella]

Er. So I asked the above question in relation to trying to get my head straight. In addition to all the emotional crap (excuse me) I'm having to deal from the whole unrequited love saga, I've also got labyrinthitis which really messes not only with one's sense of balance but clear thinking as well. So with all that in mind, and because I am really struggling to maintain calm and relaxed state, I asked - what am I doing wrong and got 19.1.2.3 changing to 15.

Now normally I would try and figure this on my own but in the context of the question asked I can't make any sense of it. Nobody is advancing with anyone. I'm completely on my own and definitely full of apprehensive caution. SO, can you help - what am I doing wrong?

Thanks so much:bows:

I think you are being advised to amplify the care you take of yourself. And I think this relates to your internal sense of hearing being dimmed right now -- and that this is putting you off balance.

The first line says that you are being made to see that every step you take is of importance and this is happening literally. With labyrinthitis walking is a challenge -- and yet only you know internally that this is the case. Generally, the ailment is hidden and people may mis-interpret what is wrong or not realise you have this situation to face. But it is STILL of primary importance. Clear up what is bothering you internally. Have your own step-by-step plan that considers YOU first and foremost. You can't collaborate with anybody else until this is straightened out.

Second line advises you that egotism is not wrong. How are you making provision for your own best interests? If you made yourself stronger you wouldn't crave relationship to so many who are unsuitable or who will weigh you down. Adjust that, then look for those who are truly a benefit to you -- and whom you can benefit. Your audience now is deaf and will remain so. You need a different circle. But, first and foremost, find yourself.

Third changing line -- when you are entirely on board again, you will have more to offer. Then go forward in a spirit of service. Don't give more than you have and don't expect anything back. If you followed the lesson of the first two lines you won't overextend yourself and the people you befriend will be worthwhile, so won't drain you to the nub. They will have something to offer as well. But let them decide what that is, when and how they give.

The background hexagram 15 is, notably, about balance. Your body and the Yi are telling you the same thing. When you've focused enough on yourself you will return to balance in all ways. And your relationships will reflect that too. Right now you apparently give with expectations that can't and won't be met. Revert to yourself and decide why that is happening. Fix this impulse which doesn't work [not just for you but for anyone.] When you are emotionally/psychologically stronger, you will find what else you need.

 

[precision grace]

thank you arabella, you are such a treasure (I hope you are doing this sort of thing for money!!)

You are right I am sure, the trouble is I have absolutely no idea how to look after myself, like what to do to sort me out. So I asked again what do I need to do Right Now to help myself and got 59.2.4.6 changing to 45 So I would interpret this as having to spend time by myself, not interacting and change the way I think and to try and detach myself from the thoughts that are causing me anguish but I don't know how to interpret the resulting 45 which seems to be about meeting with someone. Or is it saying I should see a therapist?

sorry for many questions, it's just so hard to think properly at the moment

I am so very grateful for your help, i hope Universe pays you back soon :hugs:

 

[Trojina]

Er. So I asked the above question in relation to trying to get my head straight. In addition to all the emotional crap (excuse me) I'm having to deal from the whole unrequited love saga, I've also got labyrinthitis which really messes not only with one's sense of balance but clear thinking as well. So with all that in mind, and because I am really struggling to maintain calm and relaxed state, I asked - what am I doing wrong and got 19.1.2.3 changing to 15.

Now normally I would try and figure this on my own but in the context of the question asked I can't make any sense of it. Nobody is advancing with anyone. I'm completely on my own and definitely full of apprehensive caution. SO, can you help - what am I doing wrong?

Thanks so much:bows:

My first thought on reading this, (not to diminish anything Abella said which I've not read yet) is why would you think any of this means theres something wrong with you....other than being human.

Labrynthitis certainly does mess with your head...and so does unrequited love but it doesn't follow that either of these means you did something 'wrong'.


15 could be a call to recognise your human ness. Maybe you can't maintain a calm and relaxed state now....but who can 100% of the time ? Maybe thats what the 19 lines are about...what you experience you do experience alongside everyone else ...at least all those who have had labrynthitis and unrequited love

I confess 19.1 and 19.2 leave me pretty baffled mostly so I'll quote from Hilarys book on 19.2.

Her commentary is


"Nearing is felt as an inner influence and connection: a return of energy perhaps as if you were reawakening and coming back to yourself. When you see this as part of a greater whole, everything about it is good and fruitful -even the parts that slip from your control, or hurt or don't go according to plan.


But basically I question your assumption in the question that because you suffer you did or are doing something wrong. I think suffering is pretty much a part of the human experience....even newborns suffer and they didn't do much wrong.

 

[Trojina]

You are right I am sure, the trouble is I have absolutely no idea how to look after myself, like what to do to sort me out. So I asked again what do I need to do Right Now to help myself and got 59.2.4.6 changing to 45 So I would interpret this as having to spend time by myself, not interacting and change the way I think and to try and detach myself from the thoughts that are causing me anguish but I don't know how to interpret the resulting 45 which seems to be about meeting with someone. Or is it saying I should see a therapist?

sorry for many questions, it's just so hard to think properly at the moment

It seems generally to suggest you re-collect yourself....(45) as if you had become very scattered (59) and need to come back to your core values (59.2) what you trust in. Maybe you need some space from usual company (59.4) and 59.6 actually can mean quite literally getting as far away as you can from the source of any suffering. With 59.6 i find theres often something pretty tangible in your immediate environment you need to get away from... a person, a lifestyle, something

Perhaps it would help to disconnect from the self image of one suffering here

 

[arabella]

thank you arabella, you are such a treasure (I hope you are doing this sort of thing for money!!)

You are right I am sure, the trouble is I have absolutely no idea how to look after myself, like what to do to sort me out. So I asked again what do I need to do Right Now to help myself and got 59.2.4.6 changing to 45 So I would interpret this as having to spend time by myself, not interacting and change the way I think and to try and detach myself from the thoughts that are causing me anguish but I don't know how to interpret the resulting 45 which seems to be about meeting with someone. Or is it saying I should see a therapist?

sorry for many questions, it's just so hard to think properly at the moment

I am so very grateful for your help, i hope Universe pays you back soon :hugs:

I think this is a photo-snap of more ideal interaction. First, take a deep breath. Really breathe and let yourself focus. The first line would indicate that things are in a chaotic state inside you. But your instincts, if you let them loose and don't fear them, are powerful and will carry you. All three of these moving lines would seem to have an aspect of fear to them -- fear that you can afford to release and forget about. Nothing is so wrong as that and you will not lose connection -- only gain it in the long run.

The second line should bring you great relief. Let go of responsibility for anybody but yourself. And an exercise you can do is this -- when you are in a group, don't feel compelled to comment on anything. Just listen. Notice what your emotions are doing with the various ideas that are thrown out and the ways you feel almost "required" to control or correct the situation. Say nothing. Gradually you will take into account that others should be responsible for themselves and there is nothing you need to correct. Your only responsibility is for your own reactions. Not doing what you would usually do you'll see how much trouble you create for yourself -- and how much you could avoid with no loss at all. Once you've got a handle on what the emotions are that have taken you so many places you didn't need to go, next step is to take account of where they came from. Then you can let them go.

The last line says that you will discover that interpolating yourself into every scenario doesn't serve you well. Let others be what they will. Be yourself. Don't try to control the situation or set it "right" -- it is what it is and you will only diminish yourself by trying to set rules of order on others. And, best of all, when you exercise this kind of analysis you see where you don't fit, aren't best served, don't blend most easily. It doesn't mean you have to make a rapid exit -- it just means that you will also discover where you are most comfortable and can just be yourself and relax.

I think that the background hexagram of 45 is just the canvas for discussing your personal needs in relation to a group, in a social world.

 

[precision grace]

thank you both. I've just had a nice bath with music and candles. It was lovely. haven't done that in way way too long.

labyrinthitis feels like being drunk all the time. My cat just said to me: I'm worried about you, you're not right but you are much less intense and more fun this way. Cats, huh.

Anyway, yes, I've exhausted myself trying to handle difficult people so I'll go off and just try to chilax..

much love and thanks

 

[dancing white ferret]

The first thing that popped into my mind when I read a post you had written a few weeks ago was homeopathy. Are you familiar with Bach Flower Essences or traditional homeopathy? There are hundreds of these flower essences avaiIable actually. I've got a whole encyclopedia of them. I've found them to be extremely supportive, especially when everything just feels vaguely off and I can't quite pinpoint what it is. I think these kinds of tools can help one to advance like 19 is saying, as Arabella has pointed out. Every time I read a new post by you it reinforces my original thought, something just jumps out at me that energy healing would really help facilitate healing for you. I think your energy field may have been thrown off or is being blocked somehow. Like your energetic alignment is off. When the energy field is thrown off the expression of health is inhibited. An experienced and skilled reiki or therapeutic touch practitioner might be able to help, and one can even learn how to do energy work on themself. I've never had any negative experiences using flower essences, nor have I ever heard any. Also, readily available and fairly easy to determine which one is appropriate. Some people have had weird effects from energy practitioners, so I would just be careful if you decide you want to go that route. But, it can be very effective! Like a breath of fresh air. 19 changing to 15 certainly suggests this would be a logical option to consider. Even visualization techniques may help you... Or a mantra. I know you will be feeling your old self soon.

 

[goddessliss]

I agree with DWF - I have been using flower essences for over 20 years and they are fantastic. My understanding is they basically change your mind/emotional set. Meliss

 

[arabella]

I agree with DWF - I have been using flower essences for over 20 years and they are fantastic. My understanding is they basically change your mind/emotional set. Meliss

Flower essences are great for anything effecting the energy flow of your body because they contain the vibrational essence of various flowers in a dilute water solution. The treatment relies on "water memory" or the vibrational relationship between a human body which is around 70 to 80% water and a water solution that carries the healing essence of certain plants. It works extremely well on emotional issues to the extent that you can calm yourself enough to cope. My daughter used them for years and we took Rescue Remedy everywhere in the world with us. Beyond that, you can get more lasting help, but this is a great start.

 

[precision grace]

Hello! Morning. I feel much better this morning thank you for your help. I didn't use any Bach Fl Es this time as I didn't have any to hand but I did have some essential oils and did some energy work myself.Also, it turns out watching TV helped a lot. I've not really been watching any TV for ages as I don't have a TV hooked up and watching over internet is a pain, but watched Sherlock last night (new series in England) and it seemed to re-set my brain waves a bit.

Still a bit wobbly but taking everyone's advice and trying to prioritise me.

 

[dancing white ferret]

So glad to hear you are feeling better... And, of course you know Bach Flower Essences. Hope I didn't come across as assumptive in my last post. I figured you probably are familiar with them, but you never know. Aren't they great? Nothing like just lounging in front of the TV though. I love Sherlock Holmes. Great stories! Gonna go do some of my own brain wave resetting with and episode of Merlin.