What am I expecting? 56 changing 20

[Willow1519]

That’s the question I’ve asked. I’m cleared by the doctor but I can’t help to think that my days are numbered. I have stopped everything, social life, activities, work. I have stopped working, not doing anything at all but wait…
Hexagram 56 is a shock, I can’t believe how accurate it sums up because that is exactly how I feel about that I don’t belong here (on earth) even before I was sick. I have a business running that I don’t go to anymore, it is still run by my younger employees. Does that mean the rest of my reading is my staff are leaving me?

Thank you for reading and it’s wonderful that I’ve found YiJing during these difficult times. I’m very new at this.

 

[Liselle]

This is hard to reply to since I don't really understand a lot of your post, including your question. Are you asking Yi to explain your thoughts to you? Like, "Yi, how would you describe what I'm feeling?" That's an interesting question.

Trying a guess - from what you've said, you're expecting to pass on, and you're observing your life from a distance in the meantime.

That seems like the hexagrams.

The lines seem to me like a different matter. 56.3.4.5 to 20.

Line 3:
‘Traveller burns down his resting place.
Loses his young helper.
Constancy: danger.’

Line 4:
Traveller in a place to stay,
Gains property and an axe.
My heart is not glad.’

Line 5:
‘Shooting a pheasant,
Gets it with one arrow.
So in the end, praise and a mandate.’

Am guessing line 3 means you have a place to rest (the doctor clearing you, I figure), but you're burning it down by not believing him/her. Is there a reason you don't believe the doctor?

Another resting place is your business that provides your livelihood, and you're burning that down, too, by not tending to it. Notice the line says "Constancy, danger." What's going to happen when you remain perfectly well alive, but without a functioning business?

Line 4 seems like a statement of fact. You have everything you need - a clean bill of health from the doctor, for one, but it doesn't make you happy.

I can understand that. Health scares are scary. The anxiety can stay with you even if the problem is cleared up. It has hit home that you're mortal and as you said, you start counting the days.

I'm not sure that's entirely preventable. But I suppose try not to? Try to fill your mind with other things. Go to your office, see a friend, start doing normal things again. Maybe just one thing, or one day or a few hours.

Line 5 sounds like encouragement. You can do this, you can successfully get past this. Shooting a pheasant with one arrow takes skill and ability - Yi's saying you have that. Hilary says in her book, "This is a time to be as direct as an arrow’s flight: see what is needed that you can do, and be single-minded in doing it."

Try not to squander your life by falsely assuming you won't have one. That's a circular argument, it's not helpful.

 

[my_key]

Hi willow 1519

What a wonderful question you ask. You seem to be coming from a place of deep enquiry and 56 resonates with your sense of being a stranger in a strange land. Equally, Yi looks to be answering you at that deep place. The reading looks to be solely for you to digest and not about employees or such like.

If I had been given the consultation 56.3.4.5 to 20 it would be saying something like this to me.

Stay strong in how you walk in the land, and at the same time be bright and compassionate towards yourself. The clarity you are seeking about what to expect is that if you carry on as you have been then there is a grave chance that the rest house, in which you have now been placed, will be burned down. It doesn't have to be, especially if you can follow a new inner balance (56.3). This will strengthen your power and authority and will equip you better, even though not fully at peace, to venture forth from here with greater stability and better able to make healthy choices (56.4). Look upwards and outward rather than below and behind you (56.5) and you will then be best positioned to read the signs of what is coming over the horizon to next embrace you (20).

That's if it was my consultation. You may see something different in the verses.

Take Care.

 

[rosada]

56.3 A reference to your body being in disrepair. (I see the reference to fire - were you “burning the candle at both ends”?)
56.4 Your doctors telling you things can improve but you aren’t motivated by this diagnosis.
56.5 You can expect your body to heal, particularly if you make an effort. This shouldn’t be too hard.

19’s downfall came from expecting results too soon so 20. is encouraging you to take the long view.