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to get the life I want?
. And now I reached the point
where I can't be surviving any longer, it' either getting the life I want or not living at all,
as i can't take this suffering any longer. I fear that I'm doomed. Doomed to be alone
or not with the man I want. Doomed to be unsuccessful, unloved, unappreciated, not respected,
not taken seriously...Doomed to lead a life of a failure..
Your ideas are more then welcome, they can be truly life saving at this moment.
Bamboo, Gato,
thanks a lot for your readings.
Bamboo, I would not use word "childish", I think desperate, dissilusioned, suicidal is more
adequate here.
...
For me suffering unfortunately is not optional, it was a part of my life since I was 5 or 6 years old.
What do I need to correct in myself to get the life I want?
54.1.3.6-> 50
So naturally i asked "How can I be more in control of my life/destiny?" 'cause right now my life is in control of me...
Got
9.1.4 -> 44
Dobro,
I want to take the reins and be more of control of my own destiny...Is it strength? Not sure...
In many ways, it is
Bamboo,
your post stirred different emotions in me.
I never mentioned I'm unique in my suffereing, yet that does not make my suffering less acute.
Moreover, I think I'm trying actively to change my life, as a great deal of therapy, soul searching and I ching brought me to where I'm now. As much as appreciated your insights on the reading, I have to say that your post sounds a "toughen up" judgemental lecture to me, and I as a grown woman (44) do not really need lectures at this point of my life when I'm going thru many changes emotionally and spiritually to become a different, hopefully better person. This growth is quite painful, as many beliefs, hopes and illusions are to be abandoned and discarded for good.
And I think the fact that i ask quetions like what do I need to change speak for the fact that I want to change...Not only i get that i need to change, I'm actually looking for guidance in this direction
You completely misread my posts and my questions
And I really don't appreciate being judged, lectured and criticised when all I've done was share my innermost feelings and ideas, and ask for the insight on the reading as opposed my whole life and personality, both of which are unknown to you.
Thanks for the Rumi's poem...
I have to accept that I was hurt, abused, manipulated, and I was blind, naive and could not protect myelf from those things...And i was quite skilled in ignoring my own emotions, repressing them,
not dealing with them properly...Depression is a repressed anger they say, and i have a lot to be angry about
But that does not answer the question...What do I need to change things now when finally I woke up
and abandoned my past illusions about things and people?
Feeling undeserving, feeling of being 2nd best? Does it make sense?
And I really don't appreciate being judged, lectured and criticised when all I've done was share my innermost feelings and ideas, and ask for the insight on the reading as opposed my whole life and personality, both of which are unknown to you.
...
line 1 Live and act within the borders of your life, or the borders of this situation. Only then your life will be satisfactory, or your mind relaxed. Striving for more than comes naturally causes stress, failure and contention. Not every promotion should be accepted, very often the highest place is not at all the best one.
Line 3. All things come to the one who can wait. Who craves for something will take the first-best for granted, who stays in his own dignity will get the one with dignity.
Line 6 : Only show is not enough, it has to be real. Words and deeds need truth, without that even the most beautiful ones will stay shallow and meaningless. This goes for every single aspect of life, even the smallest thought or gesture needs truth and sincerity.
Elvis,
thanks a lot for your insights! You are right on the money..
But that does not answer the question...What do I need to change things now when finally I woke up and abandoned my past illusions about things and people?
Feeling undeserving, feeling of being 2nd best? Does it make sense?
Dobro,
first of all for many people control equals power and strength.
But for me personally, all my life I was reactive, rather than proactive, and i want to change that
I want to take the reins and be more of control of my own destiny...Is it strength? Not sure...
In many ways, it is
Gato, I don't feel better..I feel weird, no energy at all suddenly...Sleepy, teary...
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).