Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).
Im kinda lost, since those panic attacks leaves me really tired and confused. Its such an intense experience, today i was just shaking and grunting from pain (emotional?), cried but i was just scared about continuing crying, since i didnt knew where it would end up, such an intense pain.
Maybe its saying that i need to stop seeking union in abundance? Because (line 3) some people are not the right people, and i need to let them go and do what they want? (line 5).
I asked a follow up question about the line 3, who are the people who are not right? 62.4>15. That talks about that i cant avoid them and need to learn to deal with them?
Seems most of my attacks came after my mother comes to my house, i asked what should be my attitude to her? 12.4.6. Which to be honest, was a "Damn, why seek union???". Last time i went to the doctor i was pretty calm, since it said it was just nerves (my body was hurting, i get this a couple weeks/days before i panic attack), so i came pretty happy about it since i just needed to calm down and take things slowly, and then she its there again knocking my door. Things ended up when she stormed out of the house screaming, and i just ended up shaking again that night. While trying to be honest and calmly explaining to her that he checked me and it was all fine, that it was just my nerves, and she keep pushing and pushing, till i said that she was making me nervous, a mistake? she takes things for the worst and scream and rant at me for asking for some space and trust in what im saying.
Since im opening a shop, and while she cames to help, suddenly feels like shes taken control of it and its my boss, not listening to the things i say, moving things that i explicit tell her not to (dumb example, but im paiting the roof and while i wait for it to dry up to paint another hand, she already put all the things bellow it, so i need to do double work). I feel like a teenager again around her, and saying things to her dosent seem to work, since she would scream at the top of her lungs and storm out, to 3 hours later flood me with whatsapps being "nice".
I ended up so confused because shes very supportive in some things, but at the same time if i ask her to stop screaming to me, really calmly, she just get even madder, or at the slightless clue that shes part of my anxiety problems she starts screaming to me, if i get 2 in a month at the second one she just snaps and call me crazy, that i will end up with schrizophrenia like my brother. Damn, sorry for writing all of this, maybe the first question states that i need to search for help in other places and not talk about it with her? Somehow i always end up thinking im the problem, that im selfish and theres something that im not seeing.
Maybe its saying that i need to stop seeking union in abundance? Because (line 3) some people are not the right people, and i need to let them go and do what they want? (line 5).
I asked a follow up question about the line 3, who are the people who are not right? 62.4>15. That talks about that i cant avoid them and need to learn to deal with them?
Seems most of my attacks came after my mother comes to my house, i asked what should be my attitude to her? 12.4.6. Which to be honest, was a "Damn, why seek union???". Last time i went to the doctor i was pretty calm, since it said it was just nerves (my body was hurting, i get this a couple weeks/days before i panic attack), so i came pretty happy about it since i just needed to calm down and take things slowly, and then she its there again knocking my door. Things ended up when she stormed out of the house screaming, and i just ended up shaking again that night. While trying to be honest and calmly explaining to her that he checked me and it was all fine, that it was just my nerves, and she keep pushing and pushing, till i said that she was making me nervous, a mistake? she takes things for the worst and scream and rant at me for asking for some space and trust in what im saying.
Since im opening a shop, and while she cames to help, suddenly feels like shes taken control of it and its my boss, not listening to the things i say, moving things that i explicit tell her not to (dumb example, but im paiting the roof and while i wait for it to dry up to paint another hand, she already put all the things bellow it, so i need to do double work). I feel like a teenager again around her, and saying things to her dosent seem to work, since she would scream at the top of her lungs and storm out, to 3 hours later flood me with whatsapps being "nice".
I ended up so confused because shes very supportive in some things, but at the same time if i ask her to stop screaming to me, really calmly, she just get even madder, or at the slightless clue that shes part of my anxiety problems she starts screaming to me, if i get 2 in a month at the second one she just snaps and call me crazy, that i will end up with schrizophrenia like my brother. Damn, sorry for writing all of this, maybe the first question states that i need to search for help in other places and not talk about it with her? Somehow i always end up thinking im the problem, that im selfish and theres something that im not seeing.