What is my wound? Hexagram 56.2 > 50

[DyingGracefully]

Hello, new friends.

I recently inquired of the i Ching "What is my wound?"
I asked this question in regards to a hard time I am going through: I feel it is affecting my affinity for connection to others, to the universe, and within myself. I feel my ego is screaming with self-importance, pride, and most specifically, protection. I have been struggling against this rather than being soft.

I am trying to locate my wound that makes me behave this way, so I inquired of the i Ching.

Now, for the answer: Hexagram 56: Lu / The Wanderer, changing to Hexagram 50: Ting / The Caldron

Changing Line 2 reads:

The traveler lodges at an inn and keeps his belongings with him at all times.
He gains a loyal servant.


I feel I am being encouraged to remember that I am simply a traveler. And that in all of these spaces I have entered, I watch myself be cruel towards others and myself. I have set fires due to thinking that I know what is best instead of softening, and learning from others, and only sharing when asked (usually I am judgmental, teacherly.) "You don't know the custom here, and it's too easy to cross a line you don't know is there."
I feel the second changing line is reminding me to keep what is mine with me and not to be brash while 'traveling,' and that the servant I gain will be comfort in myself.
Hexagram 56 seems to imply this constant change in scenery is beneficial... I find my habits are to destroy and then leave. Am I being reminded to step more lightly, that way I can hold on to my memories without bitterness? Or is this whole habit itself my wound? Do I need to look to Hexagram 50 to remind myself of flowing with the Way?

Can anyone share what they might feel I need to hear from this? I'm open to questions as well.

 

[DyingGracefully]

41.4 changes to 38.

I edited my post for clarity. There were multiple changing lines but the fourth line prevailed in this instance.

 

[Hans_K]

Hi DyingGracefully,

There were multiple changing lines but the fourth line prevailed in this instance.

Since the lines of a hexagram are the representation of a process, it would be better to include all moving lines in an answer in an interpretation, otherwise I believe a lot of information is lost.

I recently inquired of the i Ching "What is my wound?"

The lower trigram Mountain turns into Wind by the moving line at the 2nd position.
Mountain and Wind are different in nature. Mountain is solid, fixed, visible, immovable, unchanging. Wind, on the other hand, is formless, invisible; it is the invisible force that influences and sets things in motion.

Mountain with a moving line at the 2nd position is about clinging to the past or things from the past. There are things at play here that have not yet been wrapped up and affect the way one presents oneself in the outside world. It causes the sincere contact with others to be shielded and a somewhat detached attitude is adopted. This also means that a new beginning cannot be made.

Trigram Wind's advice is exchange and communication, get things moving so that the past can be released. Trigram Wind is also the inner influence that makes each person the unique individual they are.
In H50, this unique individuality becomes visible in the outer world (Fire).

Trigram Mountain and Wind are both about the 'I'. Mountain is the physical and powerful representation of the self, Wind is the influence of the self on his/her environment from the unique individuality.

You may understand that I can't really answer your question for the simple reason that I don't know you and your circumstances. I hope the above will help you formulate your own answer. As always, take what resonates and leave the rest

 

[my_key]

Hi DyingGracefully

Hello, new friends.

I recently inquired of the i Ching "What is my wound?"
I asked this question in regards to a hard time I am going through: I feel it is affecting my affinity for connection to others, to the universe, and within myself. I feel my ego is screaming with self-importance, pride, and most specifically, protection. I have been struggling against this rather than being soft.

I am trying to locate my wound that makes me behave this way, so I inquired of the i Ching.

Now, for the answer: Hexagram 56: Lu / The Wanderer, changing to Hexagram 50: Ting / The Caldron

Changing Line 2 reads:

The traveler lodges at an inn and keeps his belongings with him at all times.
He gains a loyal servant.

This consultation for me to be one where Yi is directly answering your question.
"What is my wound?"
the reply might go something like this:

Your wound is that that you are indeed a Wanderer (56). Schooled or brought up in conditions that were never restful or settled you are now on a quest to find stability and balance. Living from moment to moment you are wary of laying down roots or trusting the environment you find yourself in.

Perhaps, you have developed a well honed sense of hypersensitivity (your loyal servant?) who is always on the lookout for dangers.

You face any real, or perceived, dangers by ringing yourself with your trusted 'belongings' that have demonstrated over the years that they provide levels of protection that keep have kept you safe (56.2). Your ego ensures that your 'belongings' are always well polished and ready for use at the drop of a hat. You are ever ready to strike first, sometimes above and beyond what is really required in the situation, and only consider negotiation afterwards, if ever. Forgiveness plays second fiddle to holding grudges - both for others and for self.

Your connection is more with the small within you than the great. The root of your woundedness can be found in Hex 28 where the ridgepole is always sagging, keeping you filled constantly with dread or fear. As a result, your world view is limited and you are never quite able to stay focused on one thing or walk in one direction long enough for you to correct your situation or solidify a new way for you to walk in the world.

I feel I am being encouraged to remember that I am simply a traveler. And that in all of these spaces I have entered, I watch myself be cruel towards others and myself. I have set fires due to thinking that I know what is best instead of softening, and learning from others, and only sharing when asked (usually I am judgmental, teacherly.) "You don't know the custom here, and it's too easy to cross a line you don't know is there."
I feel the second changing line is reminding me to keep what is mine with me and not to be brash while 'traveling,' and that the servant I gain will be comfort in myself.
Hexagram 56 seems to imply this constant change in scenery is beneficial... I find my habits are to destroy and then leave. Am I being reminded to step more lightly, that way I can hold on to my memories without bitterness? Or is this whole habit itself my wound? Do I need to look to Hexagram 50 to remind myself of flowing with the Way?

Each different situation you walk into carries a new strangeness with it which you can only address in the same old ways. Lessons have not yet been fully learnt: the new has not been established yet. The context of transformation and renewal that hex 50 is calling to does not ever fully materialise because of the woundedness you hold onto. It seems like, although some progress has been made over the years (otherwise you would not be asking this type of question), you have not been able to step out of the grief and away from the quarrels of your past. The important sequential step, for the context of this important life question to manifest is un addressed. The pre-cursor to Hex 50 is Hex 49 'Skinning'. Acts of healthy letting go have not been fulfilled, perhaps through too much travelling in unhelpful or unhealthy directions or even not staying long enough in one place to allow something new to gain a hand or foot hold. As it is, you still stand in your own between world wandering in a kind of wounded limbo land.

It might even be suggested here, by Yi, that your wound is not being able to let go of your woundedness.

... or there may be other interpretations that make more sense for you.

Good Luck

 

[Hans_K]

Hi DyingGracefully,
People on this forum put in the time and effort to help you understand (hopefully better) an answer from the Yi . We would therefore appreciate it if you comment on that help or use the Like button .

 

[rosada]

“I find my habits are to destroy and then leave.” - DyingGracefully.

 

[my_key]

“I find my habits are to destroy and then leave.” - DyingGracefully.

Yes there has been a hint given here, Although we hardly ever know what are the deeper machinations of anyone who posts for help with a reading.

Hi DyingGracefully,
People on this forum put in the time and effort to help you understand (hopefully better) an answer from the Yi . We would therefore appreciate it if you comment on that help or use the Like button .

I think that's why I never expect, or require, as a condition of my posting that someone responds either in words or with an icon. In that way, it's always a joyful surprise when they do.

 

[Hypnotist Collector]

I don't know if the original poster found insight but I certainly did from my_key's response, thank you.