Clarity,
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my impression is that 30.5 talks about your grief not his.
There is a twist here that I never considered, thinking I'd "handled" it all long ago. The psychologist says I just repressed the grief, that I am petrified at watching my friend and what I perceive to be dangerous vulnerability that he displays just wherever he wants. Any time I've ever held my heart in my hands in the presence of anyone else it has been spit on, cut in half and soundly trounced. Vulnerability terrifies me. And that includes trying to process grief and being told to get on with it or I'd lose my job, my mind, my home, whatever there is to lose.
There' s a riveting book by Peter Levine on this, called 'Waking the tiger', check it out when you have the time, it can be a real open-eyer . .
btw, and with all due respect for your experience and hardships, I didn't find anything blown out of proportion in your other thread, just a wholly different perspective opened up . . your true feeling about this person might not be resentment but I also felt your posts expressed a lot of discontent towards the situation -which I think was an important step in reaching the realization you just did . . in any case, being resentful doesn't show a less-than-empathic person, only an angry or disappointed one . . not facing that is where the real damage can occur I think . .
As to your reading, I thought it interesting that it is about 'care of the cow' and you said he is a Taurus . . there is a nurturing exchange of energies in 30 which can prove to be very creative. Line 2 could also be suggesting to be very clear with him about how you perceive your exchange, so you can share points of view . . taking things slow and steady is also big with Tauruses
wishing you well!
Yes, he is a Taurus, and the first Taurus I've ever been interested in. He even kind of "lumbers" and he's a Ferdinand type bull who loves music and flowers. Hugged me the other day, got a bit flustered, turned around and crashed straight into the china closet knocking over every ornament and plate.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).