Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).
I missed that part about what motivated your decision. Wow. Great reason! And I bet you'll see results within about three or four days. Weed is notorious for suppressing dream recall and reducing REM. Everyone talks about -- and I have reason to know myself -- that there is a huge rebound affect that comes on quite quickly. And it sounds like you've already got at least reasonable recall.I've been struggling to give up pot because it brings me a lot of emotional comfort in my daily life, but it has been crippling my ability to find guidance in my dreams since I can never remember them if I get stoned.
47 sounds like it captures your situation with uncanny precision. When someone gets a reading that clear, they should pay attention to it.Thanks for the words of encouragement. In many ways my life has completely closed in around me, and the sense of oppression is very real here. The only reason I'm thinking of looking for my dreams for some kind of guidance is that my life has basically been emptied out of everything that I enjoy besides weed, and even that isn't fun anymore. In many ways I don't really want to quit, its just the only thing I have the power to change by myself, and I'm hoping I can get a hint on how to fix my life this way. It feels in a way like the universe is intentionally bullying me to do this. The line is very fitting.
I feel like a homeless man who just got mugged for his last dollar, and I have very little faith in the universe, in life, in other people, and in myself left. If this doesn't make things better or at least help me get a sign for what I can do to find fulfillment or a reason to go on I am out of hope. I also received line 22.4 more than once today, but its difficult to trust that after many bad experiences in life with no recompense.
Haha. It's more the idea of living in the States that would terrify me.Well first I have to say that IrFanK, if you ever want to make a life change you can move over here to the states and become a cannabis cessation counselor ...
Completely off-topic to your main post ... but I mentioned the book Integral Dreaming. One of the things I found fascinating about it was that despite the fact that they obviously think dreaming is very important -- they've devoted their lives to studying it -- they are quite skeptical about the idea of dream interpretation, particularly the idea that the way of engaging with a dream is to try and derive some useful message that you apply practically in your every day life. They talk a lot about a non-interpretive approach to working with dreams, being aware of it, exploring it, but on its own terms, not with reference to how it can be applied with waking life and not just buying into the idea that it's a message from your unconscious mind, telling you what to do.I actually did already have a dream, but my attitude was poor before bed and I was trying to demand guidance in exchange for the first day of abstinence so of course it was a ridiculous nightmare ...
As for the dream, some kind of giant evil "mother" entity, like a hivemind in an anthill but for humans, was forcing me into some kind of metallic suit and then plugging me into itself, similar to the plot of The Matrix. No clue what that means other than I hated it, definitely top 10 in terms of irrational fears.
I had a quick flick through his book before replying. He talks about how suffering abuse, particularly for long periods as a child, makes people susceptible to addiction. I guess lack of love is part of abuse, or usually. He also says that the substance in question is quite relevant, with some substances having much greater potential for addiction. So, addiction is the result of the interaction between the susceptibility of the individual and the addictiveness of the substance in question. With weed, he says around 15% of users seem to go on to display addictive behavior. Much higher for heroin and crystal meth, of course.IrfanK, Gabor Mate is great! I haven't read his writing but I think he is one of the major unheard voices of modern culture in terms of the general awareness of how people develop. What he says about addiction being related to a lack of love early in life really resonates with me. I appreciate the recommendation.
Cool. How's it going with dream recall? Having much impact? I saw a discussion on weed and recall on a dream forum the other day and thought about your post. Not everyone agreed that it did have an impact, but most did.I've been continuing on the path of slowly tapering off my use of cannabis, being more conscious of myself at work, and trying to accept that I need to stay home and do inner work in this time. It's been very difficult for my to swallow my pride and accept that I don't have the power to actively fight all of reality, inner and outer, at the same time.
A lot of the lines in 47 seem to say that the oppression is self-inflicted:I've thought more about Trojina's question "who is oppressing who," as well and I think in many ways this situation is one in which I am oppressing myself. My outward life is very constricted right now, but my attitude is making it ten times worse. I'm taking everything even remotely inconvenient that happens as some kind of great personal attack, beating myself up for reacting that way, and then spinning my head in circles trying to come up with a desperate escape plan. At the same time I'm fogging my head all up with weed.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).