Coworker invited me to a concert 16.5 > 45

[floranova]

This is one of those readings that made me laugh out loud. My coworker invited me to a concert for the magazine they run, and what an apt response from yi. The music hexagram and the gathering hexagram. I love it when I get confirmation that I'm being heard and not just rambling into the void.

Very on point main and relating hexagrams aside, line 5 made me pause. While I have had this reading turn out positively for me before, (https://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/fri...d-i-apply-for-other-apartments-16-5-45.36070/) this person works at the coffee shop with the guy I gave my number to last year and was rejected. (https://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/fri...about-x-completely-40-2-16.35778/#post-337723) Things are very tense and awkward between me and him, so I'm terrified he and his fiance are going to be there and it's going to make me feel sick or something lol. I can barely look at the guy for longer than 2 seconds, and I've very deliberately avoided any and all info about his fiance because I'm an expert at tearing myself to shreds via comparison.

Given what little I know of him, he doesn't seem to be the type to show up to this kind of thing, he seems busy, and it doesn't look like he's all that close to the person who invited me so I'm probably working myself up over nothing. If y'all have any other ideas that would be helpful. I'm going to go because I don't get out much and I need some friends but I will admit I'm scared that everything I've been avoiding will be shoved down my throat

 

[Liselle]

Is 15 in the title a typo? I think you can fix it by clicking the button/arrow next to "Watch" above the post - it should say "Edit thread" which lets you edit the title. Or I can do it if you'd like.

What was your question for this one?

I've seen 16.5 mean a couple of different things: one is more or less "it won't kill you" (which could apply to running into people you don't want to see, I guess); another is something like the thing you're trying to accomplish never really comes to life. Hilary explains that angle well in her book, if you have it.

 

[floranova]

Is 15 in the title a typo? I think you can fix it by clicking the button/arrow next to "Watch" above the post - it should say "Edit thread" which lets you edit the title. Or I can do it if you'd like.

What was your question for this one?

I've seen 16.5 mean a couple of different things: one is more or less "it won't kill you" (which could apply to running into people you don't want to see, I guess); another is something like the thing you're trying to accomplish never really comes to life. Hilary explains that angle well in her book, if you have it.

Oops, yes

Huh, ok! My question was really just "any thoughts or advice on this?" Sort of open ended, didn't ask about the guy specifically.

I asked again whether he'd be there and got 3uc so maybe it is that I won't end up going? Or maybe he will be there, it'll shock me, but it won't end up being as bad as I imagined? I did have a dream a few weeks ago that I met his fiance and liked her so much I didn't care about him anymore Maybe he'll show up without her. Who knows.

I'll update this weekend Jealousy is so ugly but at least I'm the pathetic kind of jealous and not vindictive or hateful lol

 

[floranova]

Update: I didn't go because I started to feel anxious about not having any established friendships in that environment. It wasn't a super personal invite, like "go with me to this thing" but rather more like "come to this thing I'm running if you're interested" so it was likely that I would have either stood there awkwardly by myself or had to suck it up and talk to strangers which is very hard for me. I felt very guilty and I do intend to apologize.

 

[Liselle]

Is there any need to apologize and feel guilty if it wasn't much of an invitation? But I don't know; I'm just reading words on a screen and it might seem different in reality.