Changes: 11.1.2.5 to 39/What's it about: 37 uc

[lysithea]

Hey everyone! Long time no see. I would appreciate if some of you could take some time to help me understand one of my latest readings.
Just to give some context: May was AWFUL. No point in sugarcoating. It was plain awful in all fronts: personal, emotional, relational, labour related. All. Just. t**s. Up. During the past month I did a few readings and they were all very consistent in the sense of "hold on", "not the time to fight", "can't fight whats going on", "better to withdraw", etc. Some examples: 64.1.2 to 21; 39.1 to 63; 54.2.3.4 to 36 etc. (not the same question, but different readings over the month, i.e. daily reading, how's the weekend going to be, casting without asking, etc). So basically I've spent all this time willingly and unwillingly following the Yi advice regarding letting things just be the way they are and minding my own business. Even when I received positive lines, they were always conditioned by some line that would say "yeah, sure but not just yet".
Anyways, today I asked "What are the possibilities of these situations changing?" and I received 11.1.2.5 to 39. I am having a bit of troubling interpreting this, but I see it as somewhat positive, with the 39 being a reflection of the obstacles I am currently facing and the changing lines as the road to recovery and a time of peace/abundance after a struggle, so there's a silver lining, especially in line 5. But still, I would love your input.
Considering line 5, which seems like a nice, positive omen after some sacrifice/forgiveness according to pretty much all the translations I use, I asked: "What is this "great happiness about" and I got 37 uc. Yep, great omen, cohesion, bonds, stability if everyone follows their roles and responsibilities, but other than that....
So, about this two readings: what do you guys think this is all about?

 

[diamanda]

Hi lysithea,

The overall impression I get from all the readings you mentioned, is that it all boils down to your relations with other people. You're involved in a/many relation(s) in which you are in a very strange position in relation to the others involved. There were a lot of premature moves, which end up in significant pain and withdrawal.

I'll specifically mention here 54.2.3.4 > 36, as it sounds to me to be directly related to your most recent casts. In this one, a lonely person waits for ages alone, then accepts the position of the 'mistress' (= being second best, not official), and then waits for ages to become a normal wife, but... 36, hurt, it never happens in the end.

And over to your current casts:

What are the possibilities of these situations changing? 11.1.2.5 > 39
Someone is publicly together with someone else (11.1), overcomes a painful separation (11.2), and gets married (11.5) - so the separation from the person of 11.2 is permanent (39). 39 says it's favourable in the south/west, but unvafourable in the north/east. Where do you live, in relation to the people involved in your question? If you live south/west to them, then the situation is to your favour, no matter what. The notion of "far away" as opposed to "right there together" is very prominent in this reading - although only you know what this could mean.

What is this "great happiness about" 37 unchanging
Because of the former 54 to 36, and also 11 to 39, I would guess that any temporary situations/relations will not last, will not go forward. Whoever was 'lucky' (?) to have more than one partnerships, chooses to go back to their familiar associates. They're not happy about it, but no matter what their feelings that's what they choose to do.

Not knowing anything about your particular circumstances, I have no idea which part you play in this equation. It sounds like a very sad situation overall... when 3 parties are involved in this manner, nobody is happy in the end. Neither the "husband", nor the "wife", nor the "mistress". I can only send you my best wishes to get out of this mess, and fingers crossed that something much better awaits for you ahead.

 

[lysithea]

Hi lysithea,

The overall impression I get from all the readings you mentioned, is that it all boils down to your relations with other people. You're involved in a/many relation(s) in which you are in a very strange position in relation to the others involved. There were a lot of premature moves, which end up in significant pain and withdrawal.

I'll specifically mention here 54.2.3.4 > 36, as it sounds to me to be directly related to your most recent casts. In this one, a lonely person waits for ages alone, then accepts the position of the 'mistress' (= being second best, not official), and then waits for ages to become a normal wife, but... 36, hurt, it never happens in the end.

And over to your current casts:

What are the possibilities of these situations changing? 11.1.2.5 > 39
Someone is publicly together with someone else (11.1), overcomes a painful separation (11.2), and gets married (11.5) - so the separation from the person of 11.2 is permanent (39). 39 says it's favourable in the south/west, but unvafourable in the north/east. Where do you live, in relation to the people involved in your question? If you live south/west to them, then the situation is to your favour, no matter what. The notion of "far away" as opposed to "right there together" is very prominent in this reading - although only you know what this could mean.

What is this "great happiness about" 37 unchanging
Because of the former 54 to 36, and also 11 to 39, I would guess that any temporary situations/relations will not last, will not go forward. Whoever was 'lucky' (?) to have more than one partnerships, chooses to go back to their familiar associates. They're not happy about it, but no matter what their feelings that's what they choose to do.

Not knowing anything about your particular circumstances, I have no idea which part you play in this equation. It sounds like a very sad situation overall... when 3 parties are involved in this manner, nobody is happy in the end. Neither the "husband", nor the "wife", nor the "mistress". I can only send you my best wishes to get out of this mess, and fingers crossed that something much better awaits for you ahead.

Hi diamanda!
Thanks for your reply. I was waiting and waiting to see if someone would put their two cents in
I am reading and re-reading trying to figure it out. It is in fact an overall sad situation, mainly because there are so many things that came together and have had me in pain.
However, there's not a literal husband/wife/mistress situation involved. As I mentioned at the begining, it's a number of things that went on during May. My job sucks so much right now that I can barely get out of bed every day in the morning. I DREAD the sound of the alarm going off, but I can't find an alternative and I've had to suck it up. I had to break up with a guy that I was dating that I was very hopeful was going to work out, but at the end didn't (no third parties involved, although he is divorced so I guess in that sense it could "apply"), but that's a relationship that ended, I am not waiting or hoping for the guy to "come back to me", especially since I decided to end it.
On the emotional front, I feel very lonely and I am having so much trouble connecting to people, which I guess is one of the reasons why these issues are digging so deep into me, because I feel absolutely disconnected from people at work, have no one to turn to in terms of friends, and people only go to me with "poblems" (both personally and professionally because I work in HR. Can I get a LOL?), this guy was such a tsunami of fresh air because at last I felt I was connecting to someone on a deep level and I thought he was as well, but at the end he just wasn't "feeling it", which made me decide to go bye-bye. My professional life is going nowhere, my personal life sucks and is not going anywhere either.... It's hard to describe, but during May (and now that's already June I guess this month too) I just feel hopeless, afraid and in a lot of pain. It's very hard to really transmit how I am feeling in writing without making this too long and boring to read, but it has been very, very challenging, very painful and very eye opening too.
But it's not really "about a guy" or about a relationship, because that story is over. It's the whole, and actually that were the questions about: What are the chances of "this", meaning any or all of this changing. This feeling, this hoplessnes. Is there any chance for something "good" to happen, by either chance, serendipity of will. Something, anything, whatever that just makes me smile for a chance.

 

[lysithea]

*for a change (can't edit for some reason)

 

[diamanda]

This whole thing sounds terrible indeed lysithea. You probably feel like the 'mistress' - left out, overlooked, having no power, hopeless. Resulting 39 shows that the obstacles will not disappear. And yet, in 39, there is definitely hope, "in the south west". Someone could help you ("the great man"), and also 37 shows that your family, or people/places familiar to you, will be beneficial. 37 also says that it's beneficial for the woman to persist. So although there won't be any heaven-sent breath of fresh air in the very near future, you still possess the power to overcome the obstacles (or anyway some of them) by putting in the effort. How about trying something like:
- Search for a new job, in the south west of where you're now located.
- Search for a new guy located in the south west.
- Reach out to your connections (great man?) to see if they can help
- Reach out to your family, or very familiar people, for some TLC
- Visit familiar places (ideally in the south west)

And maybe then something will shift? Jupiter is going direct in a few days. May was dreadful for a lot of people I know (yours truly included), so fingers crossed Jupiter will finally do something good and soon!

 

[lysithea]

Welp, I guess I was way off with my take on the reading.
I am searching for a new job (have been for a while), but I am going to pass on the guy front. Yes to everything else, I guess I've been doing that lately. I guess that's why I was asking what I asked, because I feel I've done my share. Thanks Diamanda