Hexagram 48 to 19

[Wisteria Breeze]

Hello, guys, I have previously asked a question about me and my friend whom I fell in love with (https://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/friends/showthread.php?26273-Hexagram-22-to-27-Relationship). I have had lots of changes in my life since then. I analyzed all the misunderstandings and so on. I even went to psychotherapist and got a diagnosis, GAD, so now I started to work with my mental health in order to be more happy, relaxed and so on.
I still miss my friend so much. I don't know whether it is love or not, but it is like an inner pain that you cannot cure, no matter what you are trying to do.
So I desided to ask I ching whether I should write my friend or not. I have lots of doubts about that, because I don't want to feel pain and I am not sure that he cares about our friendship, because he writes me nothing for weeks. I fully understand that my intention to write him may be caused by my feelings, because it is like a need that you can't ignore. But! Maybe now I am on path to a cure, so if I start it all over again I will ruin everything.
So I got 48 to 19.
I interpret hex 48 as an allusion to myself. And as far as I understood I am not ready yet, that I should keep working on myself in order not to make my previous mistakes.
Well, hexagram 19 is much more complicated. I can't interpret it clearly. It looks like after I sort of cure myself, put my thoughts into order and so on, I can start "approaching" him.
Could you please help me with interpretation?

 

[Tim K]

48.1.3.5 -> 19 shows an old dirty well, that needs to be cleaned before someone can drink water again.
Maybe you are not ready, or just need to forget 'old well' and find new one.

Or you can look at it by following the lines, 48.1 -> 5.3 -> 60.5 -> 19.
48.1 Old muddy well, old problem, why do you want to return to it again? Let go.
5.3 Shows its subject in the mud (close by the stream). He thereby invites the approach of injury. [Legge]
You need more time, let your thoughts go, just observe them, after some time they will dissipate.
Or you will get stuck in this mud again.

60.5 Shows its subject sweetly and acceptably enacting his regulations. There will be good fortune. The onward progress with them will afford ground for admiration. [Legge].
Discipline yourself, say no to this urge, it will pass.

19 can show progress that after some time loses its momentum and slowly turns into degradation.