Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
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+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
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becalm
Guest
I'm trying to get a handle on all the things that have happened in the last month. I thought I'd finally found a place to settle and enjoy and was really happy and loving the share house I was living in and the outer environment even making a new friend very quickly which rarely happens as I move around A LOT (I know understatement right? for those that know me on here). I also have a new job I start in January and generally I just feel at home in this small town.
Downside part is a toxic romantic relationship that I can't seem to get out of my Heart and he's friends with the people I share the house with so it's not an out of sight out of mind thing as he drops in at least 3 -4 times a week unexpectedly.
Then the other day I got accused of theft in the house https://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/friends/index.php?threads/theft-16-unchanging.29220/ but I was really hoping it would find resolution and we could all get back to a happy home but I'm feeling the only way to move on from the toxic relationship is to move out of the house as to be dealing with that and trying to get back to an equilibrium with the 'theft' incident is just a bit overwhelming for me.
I decided to take a few days break I can ill afford (financially) but another small incident happened the following morning so I just knew I had to go and decompress somewhere. On the way here my legs kept buckling underneath me and I would just burst into tears, I felt sick and my brain just couldn't function clearly. A number of hours after I arrived I started to feel normal and happy again (supportive friends will do that for you
) but last night I had one of my PTSD nightmares and although I know that's a good thing because it means my subconscious is processing things instead of bottling things up it was still awful as awful so I'm wondering if somehow I do really need to get out of that house.
What do I need to know about moving house before Christmas Hex 34.2.4.6>22 I'm not sure about Hex 22 here but the rest of the reading seems to say it would be better to persevere in my present situation as things will come out of their present stuckness.
Downside part is a toxic romantic relationship that I can't seem to get out of my Heart and he's friends with the people I share the house with so it's not an out of sight out of mind thing as he drops in at least 3 -4 times a week unexpectedly.
Then the other day I got accused of theft in the house https://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/friends/index.php?threads/theft-16-unchanging.29220/ but I was really hoping it would find resolution and we could all get back to a happy home but I'm feeling the only way to move on from the toxic relationship is to move out of the house as to be dealing with that and trying to get back to an equilibrium with the 'theft' incident is just a bit overwhelming for me.
I decided to take a few days break I can ill afford (financially) but another small incident happened the following morning so I just knew I had to go and decompress somewhere. On the way here my legs kept buckling underneath me and I would just burst into tears, I felt sick and my brain just couldn't function clearly. A number of hours after I arrived I started to feel normal and happy again (supportive friends will do that for you
) but last night I had one of my PTSD nightmares and although I know that's a good thing because it means my subconscious is processing things instead of bottling things up it was still awful as awful so I'm wondering if somehow I do really need to get out of that house.What do I need to know about moving house before Christmas Hex 34.2.4.6>22 I'm not sure about Hex 22 here but the rest of the reading seems to say it would be better to persevere in my present situation as things will come out of their present stuckness.