Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).
One small step at a time Karl. Not everything at once. Focus on work and getting through the day. Just a couple more hours. See if you can direct your energy into some task at work. Zone into it. Do me a favor, no drinks when you get home. It will only bring you lower at this point.
And... its great that you recognize that you weren't compatible. Also, good that you just acknowledged you have regrets about your own actions. We can work on letting go of what those regrets are about or why you weren't compatible later. The important thing is, one small step at a time.
I won't get hammered. I'll have some wine and try to eat some food and i'll take a multivitamin. I am the kind of person who can swallow food or sleep when I am depressed. My nerves pin and needles right now and I have inner trembling and I don't want to stay up till tomorrow ruminating.
I saw this after I posted - it is really good to know you have a plan, and that you know you'll be able to eat. And that you know you don't want to ruminate. Those are good things.
I meant can't eat.
Over the years I have done lots of things like that and they didn't really help (even the hotel thing) since I was always by myself. I just pray that the answer is to do nothing and that my mind will work it out subconsciously. But yeah, I do feel very scared to go home right now.
Well,
Its a sad but sweet story it sounds like. I wouldn't mind hearing more if you ever wanted to share. I'm glad you have a plan, good meal, glass of wine, multivitamin. I will share something that I do, that helps. Maybe you will be willing to explore it for yourself. I buy sage, cedar, and sweet grass. The sage is enough. I YouTube "Om Mani Padme Hum". If you not aware of this already, it is a very beautiful chant. On YouTube it has very lovely music to go with it. I sit on a nice pillow, in Lotus position, I light a white candle, I light the sage over a bowl, I close me eyes, and listen to the music, and chant along. I picture a beautiful golden sky at sunset, a turquoise ocean or river beneath it, I picture what the grass feels like beneath my feet. I focus so intently until I can feel myself there. It becomes very powerful. At times I will cry immensely, and not even know why. But I discipline myself through it, til finished. In the end, I feel extremely relaxed, often ready for sleep. Something negative has been released from me and I am calm, peaceful. You can research this chant and the meaning behind it. I can also tell you more about if you would like.
Oh dear....
I know it's too easy to just say "don't go home," because you actually need someplace else to be able to go. I'm trying to think if it was me, what kinds of other places might be available to me where there would at least be people (even strangers) and hubbub around for as long as you'd need it (if strangers and random hubbub would even help)...am drawing a blank...um...maybe stores that are open 24 hours where you could wander around and look at things? Walmart? Grocery stores? Is there an airport nearby??? (That might be crazy, but I've never minded passing time in an airport, oddly enough. Although I haven't been in an airport since 9/11 and that might make a difference...) Am just trying to think of busy places that are open all the time...
In the past I tried to do a lot of stuff instead of going straight home such as stop at Starbucks and stuff but that felt kind of stupid after a while because I didn't really have anything to do there?
Well I had my chart read by a lot of Indian astrologers using the Vedic system. Somehow none of their prediction are coming true. It could be because I have the wrong birth time listen on my certificate.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).