What should I do in my life? 49.1.4> 39

[marybluesky]

I received the same cast more than two years ago when asking how to remove the obstacle in my life.

I've done & examined many things in the mean time and none have been effective enough to make a significant change. That's all I know, all I can.
I'm focused on making money. In my country the economy is so unstable and the inflation so uncontrollable that the value of the money I had saved until 2019 fell badly in 2020. Before I could easily rent an apartment or buy a car with it. After, I could do nothing special. Now the prices are rising and I just try harder and harder.
Due to the fall of national currency, I don't have enough money to immigrate- which I doubt is a good option for me because of various reasons.
I've been struggling in other areas as well.

What should I do with this life? 49.1.4> 39.

Bradford: 49.1: Wrapped with golden rawhide (Not suited to taking action)
49.4:Regrets pass/ Stay confident/ Change the mandate/ Promising (Believe in the purpose)

Still not able to change, but keep the purpose in mind. I don't even know in what purpose I should believe anymore. I know nothing.

PS: Question for people familiar with astrology : As a Pisces rising, I've heard that until Saturn is in my twelfth house- 2020 to early 2023- I'll remain in some sort of cocoon. I had a caterpillar dream short after sharing this reading in October. Both the readings and dream sound so in line with this prediction. While I'm interested in birth charts, I didn't follow horoscopes up until recent months. Sometimes I find it so amazing and to the point, such as for 2020 predictions, while some details look inaccurate. For example it was said that January 2022 would carry an uneasy; heavy energy & February would lighten it. For me it was quite the reverse. January went on smooth and turned better & better toward its end. I thought I'd found my lost vigor; while February has a bad, dark energy.

 

[Liselle]

Getting the same reading over again is really interesting.

The only idea I have is maybe line 1 means somehow always stay ready, don't be caught without your shoes on, so to speak. Ready for what, I don't know. But something like, "Mary, you can come with us if you can leave right now!" only you can't find a shoe so you miss out. (This is probably an utterly silly idea, I'm just fishing.)

Also - don't take this literally since you're not a teenager, though in some ways maybe you feel like one since you're less sure where you're going than you think you ought to be - 49 is sometimes said to have adolescent qualities in the sense of - you know how teenagers will try on different skins, so to speak? Ways of dressing and behaving and belonging and whatnot? And some of those will stick and consolidate (paired hexagram 50) and some won't, and at some point their "self" forms? Again I'm clueless how that could apply, and maybe it doesn't really.

I alxo wonder if maybe you don't have a lot of control over much of this, except to get along as best you can until whatever-it-is happens. If 49 is life changes like puberty, it happens when it happens and there's no influencing it. But it's helpful to know it's coming. Once again no idea how to apply that since your problems aren't as predictable.

 

[Liselle]

Maybe that's line 4 - assume some mandate is coming and make sure you can meet it with some fu (and your shoes on). Then regrets can vanish.

'Regrets vanish, there is truth and confidence.
Changing mandate, good fortune.'

 

[Liselle]

you know how teenagers will try on different skins, so to speak? Ways of dressing and behaving and belonging and whatnot? And some of those will stick and consolidate (paired hexagram 50) and some won't, and at some point their "self" forms?

In other words (I'm not doing a good job articulating), maybe this is the stage you're in right now, and as hard to deal with as it might be, it could be necessary for your "self" to form.

 

[radiofreewill]

So, let's look at the sequence:

Hex 46 ~ you ascend to the Witness Position​

Hex 47 ~ you're exhausted when you get there​

Hex 48 ~ you get replenished at the well​

At this point you are looking out over your whole world and wondering:

"What should I do with my life?"​

Why? Because everywhere you look in your world there seems to be mainly suffering? Some small happinesses, perhaps, but on the whole, this life seems to be basically a trudge thru the mud of our unfulfilled desires...

So, what can you do when everything "out there" seems pervasively dissatisfying?

Hex 49 ~ Radical Change ~ turn yourself around...

...and look at your relationship to your world on the inside:

Line 1: Bound with yellow rawhide

The yellow rawhide is the skin. This line says that if you turn yourself around and look, then you'll see that identifying with your body as 'you' is binding you to suffering.

So, seated in the Witness Position with a calm, clear view of your world flowing thru the present moment before you; you then turn around to look behind into the workings of your mind to realize that:

You are not your body, but rather you are the Awareness of your body.​

This is radical change.

Line 4: Regrets vanish, there is truth and confidence. Changing Mandate, good fortune.

Now, having realized that you are not your body, or your mind, but rather the Awareness of your body and mind...

...you recognize this Truth for what it is, and it gives rise to confidence: there's a new sheriff in town, and she's got the Mandate of Heaven to be Sovereign over the realm of her own body-mind, and all of its feelings, thoughts and stories.

With this transformation, all of the "obstructions" (39) in your life can go away forever.

So, what should you do with your life?

Realize that you are not the liver of life, but the Awareness of a life being lived, and all of your problems will go away.

In this case, radical change can get radical results.

I hope this helps!

 

[redoleander]

49.1 So, of course this line can mean change is not possible now. I always think Lise’ interpretation is interesting though. “There are always innumerable reasons why one thinks change is impossible. Evaluate them critically - very often they are other people's reasons and one has adopted them too easily. What is common is usually not creative.”

49.4 A grand self-initiated change

39 Turn around and go the other way, approach it differently and for the long haul

Hidden line 31,4 There is something very positive here so long as consistency is applied. Karcher says that central idea isn’t yet clear in this line but something is there, and must be explored, because it is good.

Perhaps 49.1.4 > 39 is about challenging convention, going against norms. Sticking to your different way of living and thinking, and trusting that helpful people/helper spirits will come to you by following your own course, over time. Perhaps there are still some beliefs/ways of being that you have inherited or are surrounded by and so you feel stuck in them. It seems as though your role is to keep challenging those things, even when it feels impossible or intractable, and ultimately it turns out well. It seems as though you are here to do something different than what’s expected of you. That is challenging because you have to move against a lot externally in order to do that. That also probably means continuously working to resolve resistance/challenge/dogma within yourself is especially important. That way, the whole force of your being can figure out how to work with the external obstacles. Also, 39 implies it’s probably not about battling the obstacles but maybe making your own route? How can you use your energy not against what feels wrong but in a totally different way that challenges the norm right down to the bones. Build the right instead of fight the wrong whenever you have the chance to.