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Cyclotron, hope you're out right now among the peoplesssss, as you said.

One last note for you today, this one about hexagram 2, which you got when you asked the Yi whether you should give it up FOREVER.

First, I hope you understand that the Yi was not saying that it itself was bad for you when you got hexagram 36. It was saying that it was part of your fate to be in the limited position in which you found yourself: dialing a telephone to speak to God, actually. You could look at it like that. :rofl:

Now, what about that FOREVER part? You got hexagram 2. And this was over a telephone dial-up I Ching? Tell you the truth, I never heard of that method!!! Amazing!!!

Anyway, the Yi gave you a great hexagram. It said that you were being blocked by your own personal opinions. Hexagram 2 has amazing capacities to heal itself and bear up under everything on earth. It is the earth! It is the earth itself! It judges no one. It helps everyone. It bears up and sustains us all. It is constantly in motion. It is strong and dependable. It is taking care of business.

Hexagram 2 was giving you advice to do these things: Allow yourself to be led. Take suggestions. Go along with something positive. Hexagram 2 knows it needs friends and helpers. That's the thing, CyclotronMajesty. Nobody can ever accomplish anything all alone. You see how you are, when you are all alone.

Maybe it's time to suspend all judgments, as if you were going to the movies and everybody could fly or the action was taking place in outer space; you noticed that everything was very improbable -- and yet you just let yourself go along with it, because, simply, you had decided to do so, for your own reasons.

In the theater, this is called "suspension of disbelief." You watch the play, you see them changing the sets, you pretend you don't notice that several things don't make much sense, and so . . . you enjoy yourself for a change.

Hexagram 2 is doing less and enjoying it more. Hexagram 2 does not judge whether people and situations are right or wrong.

I think the I Ching was telling you to relax and allow yourself to be led to the best source of guidance.
 
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I was in public. Sort of. But people bother me. Distractions. Noises. I'm trying to to my school work. For this lady who thinks all north americans are lazy and assigns 30 + pages of time wasting work every weak. I'm behind in all my classes.

Hexagram 36 has seemingly been my fate my for a long long time.
Dark night of the soul?

Yes I'm just too dam smart for everyone I guess.
Everyone wants to work on the neanderthal frequency of consciousness.
I find it painful and very depressing. With that it's hard to go on.
If I was stupid I'd be happy. Be ahead in all my classes, have a girlfriend, get drunk on the weekends. Be a total ditz - but everyone would love me.

No instead I have to watch as other people take what is rightfully mine.

I guess I do have to be pretentious. Pretend I don't notice the utter monotonous
sameness of everyone's face and personality. Why are they so enthusiastic about being alike?

Very sad. Someone who wants to go out and achieve something - only returns to find that everyone has forgotten about him. Disbelieves him and think's he's a self-absorbed ******* who deserves to suffer. And they get their wish. Not quite how it happened in Lord of the Rings when the Hobbits returned to Hobiton...

I'm glad you see that as a good thing! I'm serious. You seem pretty knowledgeable about things Barbara. I'm glad you see that this hexagram 36 is actually not bad in as much as I'm not doing anything that goes against better judgement...

If I can suspend my disbelief of it all I may find myself able to bear being in public.

I'll work on that. Hex 36 says not to be duped. But to let it pass.

I don't know how to do that. I guess be aware of it. But don't react?

Do the social thing - but know it's not real and everything everyone does in public is a charade. Because we are all insecure monkeys.

Hexagram 10 (not that I got it or anything) talks about how to do that. Walking a thin line basically. Decorum. Social behavior. OK. I can do that. I think. I just don't want to imitate them. The way they get by is by joining a cult. Wearing the same shirt or hat or whatever they do - acting the same basically.

Really reminds me of hexagram 52.2
... I cannot stop these people from doing such stupid things.

What does that make me? Too distinguished. Too different. Too self-cultivated.

I really try to let things pass. But there is so much of it.
I can't help but get hit by some of it. Makes me turn over in my grave.

The world isn't open minded or interested in bettering itself. Thats a fantasy plot line for Star Trek. When humanity looks to Higher ideals as a collective and serves to become them.

No today humanity puts a false idol on a pedestal and then worships that Idol so they can get by and play their social or materialist darwinian game. They dont' want to achieve that idol - they only want to serve it in order so that they are "accepted". So that nobody can put a spell on them saying they are worthless lazy idiots and need to get out of their self-absorbed narcissism.

How receptive can I be? There is that thin line again.
I cannot make sacrifices - or be the martyr - doesn't help me it doesn't help them.

As far as I can go today I have to be in public but be an obvious outsider.
I might as well walk the walk as I do talk the talk.

I would like to continue to use the Yijing. I dunno if it is a good idea though.
I need that outside omniscient perspective in my life however. I need to know if the girl next door is or isn't hexagram 44. No point in going through additional hexagram 36's.

If I just use my intuition. This is what she says:

You are living in a time where there is little hope and allot of problems.
While you may find a person who resonantes with you (friend or partner) it will be a miracle - although not necessarily impossible or even improbable. What you should do is go your own way because all else will be simply too humiliating for you.


There are allot of people out there going their own way. Male and females. Problem with them is that they ARE going their own way. Their not going your way even if both of you are going your own way. ... Burning Man comes to mind. A collective attempt to unify the rebel people. What they come up with is something outrageously cultish - utterly stained by sexual licentiousness - and pretentious beyond any measure in popular culture.

I rebelled against them a couple years ago too. Probably why I lost all my friends. But i'm not the only one who has seen through that carnival.

I sincerely wish I would just stop seeing through everything.
But like in spanish they say that what you dislike is not pleasing to you. It doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you - IT doesn't please YOU. You have no reason to regret that. A concept not available in english. Because if you dislike something it's YOUR FAULT in this culture.

Speaking of which I have to get back to doing my 36 pages of spanish busy work (heh nice synchronicity eh?)
 
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To me, Cyclo, you sound like a young person who has seen thru the illusions that a lot of people forget to see thru as they age, and live immersed in. Th fact that you see thru the illusion is a good thing, but you see yourself as unique, and I can assure you the world is FULL of people who see thru the illusion, too. Chronic uniqueness is an adolescent malady, and it can be torturous to live with. It is typically adolescent to see oneself as tortured and misunderstood, and to see the "others", esp "grown-ups" as hopelessly lost in illusion. The truth is that there are many Others who are just like you. To grow up probably sounds to you like something you dont want to do...you dont want to join the ranks of the common man.

well, you dont have to join the ranks of the common man, if there really is such a thing. But you are on earth, and it is worth your while to find some way to proceed with your life and accept society. you don't necessarily have to join it, but if you want to be somehat content, you need to come to terms with it. That's growing up. And then you want mobility. Some way in which you can be free to move about, live, enjoy yourself. To do that, you simply can't stay in the adolesent mode of deep introspection and torture. You gotta rise above it and find an acceptable way to play the game. Even if you dont agree with the game, you gotta play it if you want to have some measure of peace, and to have some kind of a life when you are here.

I think you need to get out of the upper chakras and do some work on your lower chakras. Less torturous thinking and more down-to-earth physical type concerns. Forget the Qui-gong, and do some aerobic activities like running, walking. Start to think about your physical, on-the-earth life....which also involves finding work you like, getting a career going, fitting in to the scheme of every-day life.
And like Barbra says, GO OUT and be wwith the physical world. Look at the water, the forest, the rocks and the trees. Be with the squirrels, the birds. You are too much between your ears right now, stop thinking and complaining so much. be more simple. be more simple-minded.
 
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Ur right... this purple spot can't be causing me problems. I've had it for a long time and ...
Dam I ching I can't understand what you are SAYING!!!

Seems to only be there to tell me like.... uh... something that is being experienced.
Not the truth it seems. Just a wise way to handle whatever it is thats going on?

Thats the real reason I should forget about it.
I'm not wise enough to know wisdom when It's right in front of me.
I see wisdom as folly - get foolish Ideas from it.
All I ever see is a profound .. doom or angelic light.

I guess this is just the time of my life when ... Things take a big turn.
Problem is I don't have any certainty about that turn.
If I don't get some soon i'll just miss the turn and fly straight into the wall.
If I haven't already. All my friends have lapped me. Well I hope they are glad.

I defiantly need to stop using hallucinogenic drugs. Too bad. Was hoping to upgrade my mind.
Become enlightened or hopelessly happy. I don't think i'm going to stop the daily Qigong. Not yet. I'm going to try to do it 100 days straight. Thats my plan... been sticking to it so far. Sometime in March I'll be done with that. And then I'll give it a rest. It takes 45 minutes or so. I do it at night. It's not hurting me.

I'll try to be more simple minded... ......GRIT.. i mean .. arrrgg.... I don't trust simple minded.
Simple minded is slut flake. Simple minded is drunk playboy. I'll try to be simple minded. I'll try...


How about this one....

The very first time I ever asked the I-ching about this it
(which was about 2 years or so ago) At that time I was actually throwing it with restraint.
It gave me this hexagram:


38.6 - 54

When I read this page:

http://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/friends/showthread.php?t=6457

I think perhaps this is a perfect line to describe my purple dot thing.
It's an illusion. I think it's a ghost. But maybe it's not so bad. Maybe even good?
tss... haha! Nice to consider for a change.

I also got that corresponding line in hexagram 3 almost every time it came up in question:

hexagram 3.2
Came up every time.
Which seems very similar to hexagram 38 line 6

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Make a New Beginning

hexagram 3.2
Came up every time.
Which seems very similar to hexagram 38 line 6

Hexagram 3.2: Almost certainly you were seriously attracted to somebody, and they were giving you the runaround, not only once, but repeatedly.

Hexagram 38.6 also points to a seriously conflicted relationship concern.

Here is what I am thinking this morning, CM: Make a new beginning.

Since you have already decided not to be a conformist, just let the ways of others not bother you.

Every morning when you wake up, think about what kind of day you want to have. Do you want to have a good day? Then set that as your intention: to have a good day. Then say: I have no question. I forgot what to decide.

You have your schoolwork to attend to. Don't be failing all your classes. If you don't go to school while you're still a young person, you will most likely miss the opportunity completely. Later in life you'll have to earn a living, and you may no longer have any time or energy to go to school. What a waste, if that should happen to you.

I'm going to send you a private message about something.
 

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When I read this page:

http://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/friends/showthread.php?t=6457

I think perhaps this is a perfect line to describe my purple dot thing.
It's an illusion. I think it's a ghost. But maybe it's not so bad.

In one sentence, 38.6 means suspicion and distrust due to alienation. In other words, the purple dot is being produced by your own alienated state of mind.

By the way, I don't know if you saw my posting somewhere above about "floaters," which is an actual condition of the eye in which some solid thing floats in the fluid inside the eye. Have you been checked out for a floater? I am assuming that you have been checked out physically, since you are a student in school.

As Bamboo said above, you would be surprised to learn how many other people (of all ages) (and through all the ages) actually feel or have felt exactly the same way you do. I'm all for support groups, as Marien suggested, if you can find one where you'd feel comfortable.

Remember what I said above somewhere: You can't say "no" to everything. You have to say "yes" to at least one thing. That's only logical.
 
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if 38.6 means that my alienated state of mind is causing this hallucination.
Which it seems to because every time it happens I forget something that was going on in my mind.

Then the other readings make sense too.
52.1.2.4 means I'm unable to connect to people

44.3.4 means this is a evil influence and it means i'm aloof - Not a good thing.
Not an ally. Not something good for me.

I remember the first time It happened I was at a party but I was annoyed by the people for some reason. Unable to socialize at that time. Or unwilling. I won't even defend myself.

But to have this persist for 4 or 5 years afterward is evil punishment.

All my worst fears about this have been confirmed.

If 38.6 means it's being produced by my alienated state of mind.
Then somehow I have to stop my alienated state of mind.
I don't even recognize it.

Try to control such minutes states of consciousness. How?
I have to become a Buddha just to be normal??

So this is causing my social life to collapse?

6 - 64 means conflict and division!

It happens so fast I don't understand how i'm supposed to - It's like asking someone to control a millivolt in their brain.

60 - 3 must mean don't miss the opportunity.

When I got hexagram 3 often it was line 2 and others.
for example hexagram 3 - 1

I was asking about the hallucination not a person.

What do I do? What am I supposed to do!? How on earth am I going to make this better?
How can god do this to me? This is evil.
 
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So i'm walking around self alienated and alienated from reality?
It's happening constantly.
 
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Could the yi be saying to change my state of alienation would fix it?
Because I cannot catch it. Once it starts it's just there.
I cannot stop doing it.

But if I can undermine it. As to change my state of mind
But it happens almost all the time.
I just cannot fathom what level of attention I have to produce to change this?

It happens no matter what I do!

And when it happens I still don't understand it,. It's like it deletes my memory.

All i'm doing is changing my attention!
 

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are you a teenager living with your mum and dad ? teenagers talk about being alienated alot...especially when they live with their parents
 

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To me, Cyclo, you sound like a young person who has seen thru the illusions that a lot of people forget to see thru as they age, and live immersed in. Th fact that you see thru the illusion is a good thing, but you see yourself as unique, and I can assure you the world is FULL of people who see thru the illusion, too. Chronic uniqueness is an adolescent malady, and it can be torturous to live with. It is typically adolescent to see oneself as tortured and misunderstood, and to see the "others", esp "grown-ups" as hopelessly lost in illusion. The truth is that there are many Others who are just like you. To grow up probably sounds to you like something you dont want to do...you dont want to join the ranks of the common man.

well, you dont have to join the ranks of the common man, if there really is such a thing. But you are on earth, and it is worth your while to find some way to proceed with your life and accept society. you don't necessarily have to join it, but if you want to be somehat content, you need to come to terms with it. That's growing up. And then you want mobility. Some way in which you can be free to move about, live, enjoy yourself. To do that, you simply can't stay in the adolesent mode of deep introspection and torture. You gotta rise above it and find an acceptable way to play the game. Even if you dont agree with the game, you gotta play it if you want to have some measure of peace, and to have some kind of a life when you are here.

I think you need to get out of the upper chakras and do some work on your lower chakras. Less torturous thinking and more down-to-earth physical type concerns. Forget the Qui-gong, and do some aerobic activities like running, walking. Start to think about your physical, on-the-earth life....which also involves finding work you like, getting a career going, fitting in to the scheme of every-day life.
And like Barbra says, GO OUT and be wwith the physical world. Look at the water, the forest, the rocks and the trees. Be with the squirrels, the birds. You are too much between your ears right now, stop thinking and complaining so much. be more simple. be more simple-minded.

I thought this needed repeating. Its fairly well considered with really sound advice..its true..did you read it, don't skip past it onto the next reading..well you can if you like but i think this is good advice for you cyclo.

if you want to reduce halucinating and feeling alienated come back to earth
 
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I did read it.

It's good advice. I'll try. Maybe If I just forget about all these things and get on with living a normal life things will gradually clear up. I have a hard time not getting deep into strange and dark ideas. Ideas about consciousness, mind, energy, magic, reality, mysticism, occultism etc. This is who i've grown into being for the last 4 or 5 years.

I had depression and anxiety before that.
My whole life. All these things are my attempt to understand what is going on with me and simultaneously with the world by understanding my self. Wasn't my objective to understand the world but ... Thats one of the mysteries.

I see and think way too deeply. I've hit realms that are over my head. This drives me forward.
It has even motivated me to spend my life or career investigating these matters. The old occult and ancient past has very much expedience in todays world - It seems we need that understanding so badly. I crave it - lust for it. More than sex. In fact it's replaced that drive for all practical purposes.

But this drive has been with me my whole life. I never stopped asking questions. Ever.

...

That is part of who I am. It may be my destiny or fate. It's very hard to be someone your not.
And i'm sure if I was someone else I'd have a very much easier time in life. Everything for me is a drum roll. If it isn't a drum roll it just doesn't happen. That is the necessity of energy I need to get anything in my life to work... Pretty much. I need allot of pressure I guess?

Could you or someone please look at this reading?

I asked before I quit the Yijing these questions:

I did not put them all down because some were very very horrible imho
(please correct me if I'm wrong):

I posted this earlier Barbara did a excellent job dispersing the anxiety they showed me but I did not mention one. And her recent interpretation of 38.6 has given me great return of doubt and fear. (Sorry Barbara to put you in the lime light and to give you all that power I don't mean to misrepresent).

Here they are:

I feel like my soul or essence is being dispersed please comment:

Hexagram 53.2.3 - 59


When I saw this It confirmed my outlandish doubts... Gradual dispersion!!!
Sounds kinda freaky. Especially line 3. When there are purple dots popping in and out of your visual field.

Why am I loosing my essential nature?

hexagram 20 unchanging

How am I loosing my essential nature?

hexagram 20 unchanging.

How do I stop loosing my essential nature or regain it?

hexagram 44.2.5 - 56

I know you responded on this a bit trojan but could you perhaps elaborate?
Hexagram 44 seems like a meeting with ghosts or spirits or elves - the unconscious, subconscious - spirit world haunted ghost realm and never seems like a happy place. Power and need to not associate?

Disassociation? Thats exactly my problem. But maybe a state of mind can be remedied by a change in my corporeal life? Perhaps if I associate with others. (I do associate with weirdos sometimes) My reality will be put back together? Perhaps thats what the 44.2.5 means?

Is it that I just need to connect with others?
Sounds very simple but really it's not my #1 objective to disassociate from reality or people...
It's not like I want to be without a girlfriend my whole life - never amount to anything and be forgotten.

But of course I do have my mental problems. I don't like saying that though because people can then just regard me as crazy or insane and not listen to anything I have to say. Really isn't fair (Hexagram 47 incarnate). Which is why I don't say it. Besides if any of you were half as smart as I would you would have just as many mental problems yourself. Maybe your all wiser thus. I try not to have an ego about it all - but maybe thats what i'm missing a healthy sense of self respect.

Anyone honestly think that most the people in the world all out doing what their told and not asking a single question it - yet living in abundance and mirth are all sane healthy human specimen apex of evolution and intelligence? What if Einstein had done that? What about Newton? Or Descartes?

Not every outsider makes it back with something worth a damn. But if that is my fate. Well then what can one do? I may amount to nothing. So far - nothing but a massive drain in my parents checkbook.

Anyhow... :bag:
 
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I've lost trackog what the 38.6 reading was about but generally it can mean something you have fear and distrust of is actually quite harmless and friendly.

Hmm was it the purple lights ? if so i see these too but i don't know if they are the same as yours..i even had my eyes tested lol and i've come across others saying they see them too, like very bright purple flashes ...really i wouldn't worry about them, if drs and opticians aren't concerned just don't worry. I know some say they are spirit energies, some say they may be flashes from your own aura, or just electricity, who knows, but I'm sure they are nothing at all to worry about. If you received 38.6 about these purple 'dots' then this is a highly reassuring answer..it says what you fear is not an assailant but a friend..what could be a better answer than that.

Maybe you have a natural aptitude for and interest in all things deemed 'mystical', nothing wrong with that...but its important you keep well and happy too and i think staying grounded more can help...focusing on your physical earthly life like Bamboo suggested, so you don't get too spaced out and anxious.

I really think you need to take care of yourself, you know sleep, eat, take exersize, stop mentally torturing yourself. Seems the answers from the Yi distress you because you think they are harsh or blame you but this is probably largely your projection. Taking drugs is about the worse thing you can do for your mind isn't it if you are already feeling wobbly. And the reason i said it might be good to give the Yi a rest is just it seems you need to get away from your head and into your body more...especially if you don't understand the answers.
 
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Muchos Gracias Trojan Hombre.

I figured as much when I first saw 38.6

I guess some kind of anxiety about it in Barbara's message let me fear i'm being attacked by ghosts who are eating my soul! Lol. see i'm a drama queen. But i'm not a girl... anyway...

Perhaps 53 - 59 isn't so evil?

This semester is destroying me. I dont' get to sleep - quizes catch me off guard - behind in my reading. ... I do need to be grounded but right now i'm so mentally charged becuase of my classes. And I'm not getting any time for self care aside from that qigong routine I do - Religiously. But it's helped me tremendously and I think its fixing my knee.

If u have purple dots then maybe it's not so bad... ...

Thing about 38.6 is can be said two ways.
Yi is either saying what is happening to cause it?
Or is saying what it is when it happens.

If it's the latter then I can feel comforted.
If it is the former then I need to analyze my state of mind constantly make sure i'm not seeing ghosts when I there are only friends nearby. ... Which means there are ghosts does it not? So perhaps in as much as that says. That the Yi is saying it's no big deal. And it isn't a robber that I need to fight off 53.3... Perhaps the only robber I need to fight off is loosing my head over this. I have ignored it for many years.... someone give me credit... :hissy:
 
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lol

I need a burito

haha i'm taking spanish but still can't spell burrito.
 

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Muchos Gracias Trojan Hombre.

I figured as much when I first saw 38.6

I guess some kind of anxiety about it in Barbara's message let me fear i'm being attacked by ghosts who are eating my soul! Lol. see i'm a drama queen. But i'm not a girl... anyway...

Perhaps 53 - 59 isn't so evil?

This semester is destroying me. I dont' get to sleep - quizes catch me off guard - behind in my reading. ... I do need to be grounded but right now i'm so mentally charged becuase of my classes. And I'm not getting any time for self care aside from that qigong routine I do - Religiously. But it's helped me tremendously and I think its fixing my knee.

If u have purple dots then maybe it's not so bad... ...

Thing about 38.6 is can be said two ways.
Yi is either saying what is happening to cause it?
Or is saying what it is when it happens.

If it's the latter then I can feel comforted.
If it is the former then I need to analyze my state of mind constantly make sure i'm not seeing ghosts when I there are only friends nearby. ... Which means there are ghosts does it not? So perhaps in as much as that says. That the Yi is saying it's no big deal. And it isn't a robber that I need to fight off 53.3... Perhaps the only robber I need to fight off is loosing my head over this. I have ignored it for many years.... someone give me credit... :hissy:

Oh yes I love my purple dots ;) but honestly its a phenomenon more and more people on other forums describe...the new agey ones say its spirit, I'm not sure as i don't get much sense of prescence with them although i would say they are around more if you are distressed..so who knows these things may be around more because your're not happy..a kind of support. If they disturb you you can ask them in your mind to go away..and that seems to work..but I can't say if we are talking of the same thing or if its merely some little physical blip...all i know is in my case its fairly frequent and harmless..I don't think they are ghosts as such...I don't think you need worry about that.
 

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Gee, that is one amazing video, Trojan.

About dispersal: 53.2.3 > 59. Here goes, CM. The Yi is saying this, "In the context of your question about dispersal, these moving lines mean you are in a secure position. Just allow things to develop gradually."

And that's all it said.

Hexagram 53 is about gradual development.

I think you are doing good work in using the I Ching to solve your problems. You are precise in your use of the I Ching, but you are not a good interpreter yet. Why don't you give it a rest for a while? I say this because you're putting too much weight on the readings . . . It is an oracle, after all. It is by nature quite difficult to interpret . . .

Let me say again: There is no bad news here, in any of your hexagrams.
 

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Even after that whole post, I still maintain you are not unique. People who have trouble fitting in to the status quo frequently delve into the mystical and metaphysical to find belonging there, or to soothe their sense of alienation. but it makes you lopsided. you need to get down into the lower chakras and heal your wounded sense of belonging from that level.

When I was an adolescent, I went to school in NYC and everyday, I stared at people who walked around like robots doing their thing, and I was aghast. I felt like I was the only person in rthe whole world who wondered "what the hell are we doing here, on this planet, spinning thru space, why is everyone acting like what they are doing is important, and how can everyone walk around so stonefaced and not be looking at each other?' I felt like an alien, and I was tortured, and spiritual things were my only solace. Spent lots of time in spiritual pursuits.
Then I met a man who was pragmatic personified. BIg money-maker, loved working wall street, all ambition and not a shred of cosmic curiousity. I thought oh yay someone to save me and protect me because I am so fragile and other-worldly. Well, when our marriage broke up, I was left with a little girl to raise. Pragmatic Personified helped of course, but in the nitty gritty, I was on my own. Talk about coming down to earth. That began my journey into the lower chakras....how to find some purpose in the physical world, how to put another's well-being before my own, how to be financially independent, how to go back to school, get a job, become street-smart, how to heal my old wounds about fitting in and being a functioning member of society. There is no escaping it...unless of course you choose the loony bin which is full of people who would rather go crazy than face the truth about themselves, on every level. You are here on earth to GROW UP, not to be a drain on your parents bank account, on the taxpayers and on the system. If you choose that route, you'll maybe subsist, but you will be miserable and tortured and after about age 30, it aint so cute anymore, it aint so forgivable.

you really are not serious yet about this. Life has not made you really humble yet. If you are lucky, it will.
 
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CM, just curious.. are you a Scorpio?

Imo, not that you will necessarily listen, bamboo is directly on the mark on this.

I damned near drove myself crazy with impossible questions, when in my twenties. Now that I'm older and retired, I have the luxury to indulge myself in as much philosophical meanderings as my enlarged heart desires. But you know what, son? I earned it! That's right. Over 40 years bustin' tail in the work force to support myself and my family. That's what you've got to do too. You have to find it in you, the guts to play game and take care of others as well as yourself. I did it by finding a commercial niche for my natural abilities. You have them too, even though you probably don't believe it. You have them too. Just a matter of being open enough to receive good things, and dissolving your fatalistic view of your life. Start creating new hallucinations, like images of living a happy life.
 

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A happy dream

Just a matter of being open enough to receive good things, and dissolving your fatalistic view of your life. Start creating new hallucinations, like images of living a happy life.

Why not learn the art of turning nightmares into happy dreams? -- I agree with Meng 110 percent.

I think CM might be a Taurus, because I heard all the Tauruses recently lost touch with their social networks, not that I know much about astrology.

I agree with everybody about those lower chakras and getting back into better balance. A sound mind in a sound body. When we lose our grounding, we have to get it back. That is always priority number one. :eek:
 

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